Hi, I'm Apanda! This world will have updates about my life and stuffs. So yeah, it'll be pretty boring... Sorry. -_-
My Loveless name is Worthless.
1. lacking in usefulness or value; "a worthless idler" [ant: valuable]
2. morally reprehensible; "would do something as despicable as murder"; "ugly crimes"; "the vile development of slavery appalled them"; "a slimy little liar" [syn: despicable]
My fruit is mango: Though the outer rind is colourful and deeply hued,
Its kevlar-type resistance cannot be consumed. Deep underneath the reddish orange rind though, is so much soul and nutrient compassion.
My new favorit quote's:
1. “Love is something that you’d get hurt about. Getting hurt, feeling pain... if you don’t feel it, then that’s not love.”
2. "You can never have the same love twice. When one love ends... even if you fall in love with someone else...you can never have the same love again. Even love matures. Its like a flower. Cherish it while it blooms."
Quote by Nanba, from Hana-Kimi For you in full bloom.
3. "Pure love means loving only one woman. Shes the one you hold most precious. She's so dear to you that no other woman would even enter your field of vision."
Quote by Makoto, from W Juliet.
4. "Its like I'm always the only one in love here."
Quote by Yukari, from Paradise Kiss.
5. "Watch for that signal, when life as you know it ends."
Quote by Jerry, from P.S. I Love You.
And now here's a song From the new All American Rejects CD that i really like.
Wow, this year just flew by... well not really, lol. during the year i just thought time wasnt moving at all, but now im sad that its over. just one more year... Heh, one more year to WHAT? what the hells so great about graduating anyways. sure, you get out of school, but then what? then your just out on your own, probably all alone, unless youve got someone. but what the hell happens to us people who dont have anybody. you know what, im actually not very excited about graduating anymore. im kinda dreading it. and i know its like a year from now, but i worry about stuff like this a lot... and way before i need to start worrying about it. i also get the feeling that this summer and next year are going to suck. idk why, i just do, and im usually right about those kinda things... i also think this week is gonna suck, but im really hoping that changes.
*crosses fingers*
Oh, im supposed to sleep over at Kays house on friday, so i guess that will cheer me up if my week sucks. she has this way of making me smile even when ive had the worst day ever. i wish i could do that for someone, where all they have to do is look at me and it makes them smile.
*sigh*
the only reason anyone would smile at me like that would probably be because i look funny...
T-T
oh well, its a nice thought i guess.
but ill probably never mean anything to anyone...
sorry, im in a kinda depressing mood.
although i guess to some people im always depressing.
so sorry for being miserable. its not like i like being depressed, or never having anything to talk about.
SO SORRY FOR BEING BORING!
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yeah, im also kinda angry.
if you couldnt tell.
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god i hate this.
this morning the asian said ive changed. because the whole, i dont get sad anymore, i just get angry. and she thinks its a good change, but i dont. id much rather just go back to getting sad and cutting myself. at least that didnt bother anyone. now i get angry and im starting to take it out on other people. and im usually not like that. i take everything out on myself, and blame myself, and i like that... its much better then taking it out on other people. especially when those other people are my friends.
ok so i did figure out what i had to do. i didnt finish the other temple place first. i thought i had but i hadnt... i guess. but uh, now im kinda stuck at the other temple place. or, well im not really stuck, i just gotta find the key to get into the boss fight area.
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yeah, thats really all ive been doing so i dont got much esle to talk about.
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although i did watch ps i love you last night, and i liked it. i dont think i really got to enjoy it though, because i had to watch it with my mom. thats one of those movies that id like to watch alone. mainly because when im alone i just let myself go, and cry. but when my moms sitting there in seeing distance of me, i dont like crying, and then i have to concentrate on not crying, and then i miss things in the movie... and yeah. its just much easier to watch that stuff alone. and she ended up not even liking it that much.
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but there was a line that was said that i liked, so im putting it up in my quote section.
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and the only other thing thats of any importance, is i had some crappy dreams last night. not really nightmares, just ones that make me angry and depressed. so yeah, that sucks.
my mom and korie went out so i was able to sneak on. lol, so how is everyone?
im doing pretty good.
i checked my weight this morning and ive now lost 30 pounds.
*squee* me was freaking excited.
^_^
i want to like, celebrate or something, but i dont think anyone could come out to play. and i dont wanna just go calling people and telling them you know.
*sigh*
so yeah, i guess im celebrating alone.
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lol, anyways, i started playing wind waker again, and im kinda stuck. im need to find this other sage person and i know who it is, but when i went to the area to find him it was all like "it would be useless to look for hime." cause i guess hes in hiding or something. so im not sure if i should still look for him or not. and if i dont look for him. what the fuck am i supposed to be doing right now.
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so yeah, after im done here im gonna go look up what to do.
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and actually i think i am done. ive got nothin else to say.
so bye-bye peoples.
ill probably be on again tomorrow cause mom and korie go to church.
we walked to walmart... is it walmart or wallmart? anyways, we walked around for a while and then we got some nasty ice cream to eat on the way home. except it was already cold outside so we probably looked really stupid... lol. then we went to my place and watched some stuffs on the TV and the internet. which was fun.
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then when i told my mom about it, (cause i knew she'd find out) she got angry of course and took away my internet for a week, and a new anime DVD boxset that i had just gotten and hadnt even watched yet, which sucks, but i think ill get it back. sooner or later... hopefully.
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Oh, and then after dinner i went to the movies with my aunt and saw Horten hears a who (she didnt want to go without a kid). and yeah, was actually a pretty good movie. we were in there with a bunch of little kids. lol, we felt like such losers.
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and thats it, really. when we got home i did homework and then i went to bed.
