Yeah, im pretty sure im gonna ask my mom to get me the meds. my moods have been really messed up lately, and im really getting sick of myself. and i dont want to scare anyone else away from me...
so yeah, ill probably have those in about a week or so. im just hoping they actually work, cause the last pills i took didnt do shit for me.
-_-
Anyways... today was an ok day, my tummy was hurting on and off all day and still is, so that sucks. and its not cramps or anything, cause this happens all the time. um, i gave my friend (not sure if i should say her name) her gift that i got at acen, and she said she liked it. justine got her one too, and she looked so happy to be getting stuff. ^_^ i like seeing my friends happy. more so then i like being happy myself.
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Um, what else... OH, i think were supposed to go look for a new kitty this weekend. and im so excited cause its gonna be my cat, and nobody elses. tiger was always sams cat, and billy is kories. all ive got is a stupid bunny who hates my guts and never lets me pet him or hold him without freaking out and trying to attack me.
and i think thats it.
talk to you all later.
bye
Hi everybody!
how is everybodys weekends going?
mine was pretty good, cause of acen and all.
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yeah, so i got 2 DVDs (yuri of course), some pics, cat ears, and a book.
and i got drunk the very first night. lol, but i didnt really like it. i mean at first i loved it, but then i started getting annoyed at myself cause i couldnt concentrate on anything. so yeah, probably not gonna be a big drinker later on. which is probably a good thing.
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um, my mom bought DDR, and yeah. her and my lil sis are both better at it then me which is REALLY depressing.
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yeah ive got nothing else to say.
sorry, i wanted to give this really long post about acen, but im really just not in the mood. that and not much really happened. i was actually bored most of the time... or just frusterated at myself for stupid shit. i had all these plans for stuff i wanted to do, and i didnt do any of them.
but yeah, lol, thats probably a good thing.
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oh heres something i thought was pretty cool. i was finally able to hit a wall so hard i made my hand bleed. it was funny cause i was really angry at the time, but that actually made me happy... for like 10 seconds. so yeah, you all have no idea how long ive wanted to do that, i always just get the stupid bruises.
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yeah, talk to you all tomorrow ok.
bye
*squee*
we're leaving tonight. i cant wait.
^_^
were having some truoble with the room, but other then that everythings going good. my moods been much better, i got kinda scared yesterday cause some stuff happened, but im glad i cheered up right away.
cant go to acen angry, that wouldnt be any fun.
ill see everybody next monday ok.
Bye-bye
wow, it seems like i havent posted in a while.
but i guess i just posted on saturday right.
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Hm, anyways, ive been feeling better then i was last week. which is a plus, i think i might have scared myself into being happy. lol. cause of the whole, threatening myself with the meds thing. -_-
so yeah, my uncle david left monday morning. and he left his laptop here with me for the next 2 weeks till he comes back to visit. so thats awesome. ^_^ i watched some anime with the asian yesterday on it, and that was fun. i hardly ever have anything to do here, so im happy to not be bored.
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Um, im still reading the host... im a slow reader. >_< which sucks, but whatever. that just means i get to be entertained a bit longer with it. although i was hoping to finish it befor acen... but i dont think thats ever gonna happen, cause i gots to do some history homework, and im reading catcher in the rye for english. and those are the 2 classes im failing right now so... yeah i gots to do it.
*sigh*
ACEN... i cant wait, its only like, 3 days away.
*squee*
god i wish i could just fast forward time.
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Hm, yeah ive got nothing else.
im just wasting my time here while i wait for Justine to call me, cause were supposed to go walk to the asian mart or something over in that area.
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so yeah, im gonna go read now.
Bye-bye
OMG!
ok so my mom woke me up at 7:20 today cause my uncle david was here. and thats so freaking awesome. cause i like havent seen him in forever.
^_^
hes like my favorite relative EVER!
hes just like a kid in a 30 some year old guys body. lol.
so yeah, hes fun.
and like, hes been tellin us how things have been for him, cause he just recently found out his wife had been cheating on him with his best friend. so hes like, getting a divorce and stuff. but yeah, hes been doing pretty good. hes got a new girlfriend, (he showed me a naked pic of her on his phone. ^_^ i love this guy) he got one of his nipples pierced, which is sooooo gross i could NEVER do that. it just looks so freaking painfull. now im a masachist but id still never do that...
anyways, he found out im a lesbian, and he thought that was great. so yeah, hes completely fine with it. lol. he got me alone for a while and was asking me if i smoke or drink. and i told him ive tried smoking but i dont like it and i told him about how sammy slipped me some vodka. lol, he thought that was pretty funny. and i told him about how ive been trying to watch some porn and he gave me a website that i could go to. and i just did. (im on his laptop in my room while him and my mom talk) and wow... i think im a prude or something cause none of that looked hot to me. it all just looks so gross. i mean even if i had a nice body i could never imagine me doing any of that. -_- so yeah, that sucks. it may sound weird, but i really wish i wasnt so prudish. i wish i was into that stuff, but im just not. i mean i like touching (and i dont mean anything really bad just like, physical contact), and kissing looks like fun, but thats it, everything else just looks disgusting to me...
*sigh*
i really suck.
its no wonder why everyone leaves me.
im like, the most boring person i know.
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i think ive said that before on here. with that same exact wording to.
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anyways, now for other news.
i got the near shirt, although it does have a pocket. i was to lazy to try and find one without. and yeah, it looks horrible on me. like, i tried on the whole cosplay and i look retarded. and i dont think ive ever worn that much white in my life.
lol.
i also went food shopping for acen, cause justines mom wont let justine by food for other people.
*shakes fist*
and yeah, i got doritos, 4 boxes of pocky, cookies, and gushers, cause justine mentioned the other day that she hasnt had them in a while. ^_^
and then i think Justines gonna bring ramen. and ill probably bring some paper bowls and forks. (last time we brought ramen, but didnt have any bowls)
and yeah, i think thats it.
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oh, wait, you all know how ive been like SUPER depressed lately, and kinda angry. well yeah, ive been doing a lot of thinking, and i think, if it doesnt let up after next week, then im gonna look into getting me some meds, cause im sick of feeling like this. im just angry all the time, and i like, never smile or laugh. not for real anyways. so yeah, i just thought id tell you all that. and it probably doesnt sound like a big deal, but it is to me. i like trying to fix my own problems, i dont like taking meds to help me. it makes me feel weak. and i only mean that for mental things, like i take pain meds all the time. lol.
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yeah.
one more thing, is i got a new book called the host, and its by the same person who's writing the twilight series. i had read about it on her site, but i didnt know it was out until i saw it at walmart yesterday. so yeah, i bought it. but i had to put back the movie i wanted to bye.
oh oh oh! i watched a movie called wristcutters last night, (it took me forever to get my mom to let me rent it) and it was great. well mayb not great, but it was funny. the whole thingis just like when you commit suicide, you go to this other world, and its just like the real world except more depressing. and like the only people who are there, are people who have commited suicide, and for some reason they cant smile there... but yeah, its a romance/ comedy movie, and i recomend it. ^_^
i also got the heartbreak kid, cause Justine said it was really funny. so im gonna watch that tonight.
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and now i is going to go.
me want to go spend some more time with david.
hes actually put me in a pretty good mood, i was really dreading today, cause i thought i would have to much free time, but i think todays gonna be a good day.
see you all later.
bye.
