Hi, I'm Apanda! This world will have updates about my life and stuffs. So yeah, it'll be pretty boring... Sorry. -_-
My Loveless name is Worthless.
1. lacking in usefulness or value; "a worthless idler" [ant: valuable]
2. morally reprehensible; "would do something as despicable as murder"; "ugly crimes"; "the vile development of slavery appalled them"; "a slimy little liar" [syn: despicable]
My fruit is mango: Though the outer rind is colourful and deeply hued,
Its kevlar-type resistance cannot be consumed. Deep underneath the reddish orange rind though, is so much soul and nutrient compassion.
My new favorit quote's:
1. “Love is something that you’d get hurt about. Getting hurt, feeling pain... if you don’t feel it, then that’s not love.”
2. "You can never have the same love twice. When one love ends... even if you fall in love with someone else...you can never have the same love again. Even love matures. Its like a flower. Cherish it while it blooms."
Quote by Nanba, from Hana-Kimi For you in full bloom.
3. "Pure love means loving only one woman. Shes the one you hold most precious. She's so dear to you that no other woman would even enter your field of vision."
Quote by Makoto, from W Juliet.
4. "Its like I'm always the only one in love here."
Quote by Yukari, from Paradise Kiss.
5. "Watch for that signal, when life as you know it ends."
Quote by Jerry, from P.S. I Love You.
And now here's a song From the new All American Rejects CD that i really like.
Ok i love this song. i think this is like the first time ive ever heard a song by the all american rejects singing with another person, and i really like the girls voice. its pretty. ^^
and heres the video, sorry they're all kinda boring cause they're just the one pic. theres no amvs for these songs, probably cause they're to new. >_<
so yeah, here it is.
and here are the lyrics. ^^
"Another Heart Calls"
Do you remember when we didn't care
We were just two kids that took the moment when it was there
Do you remember you at all
Another heart calls
Yeah I remember when we stole the night
We'd lie awake but dreaming till the sun would wash the sky
Just as soon as I see you
I did lie but didn't I tell you
As deep as I need you,
You wanna leave it all
What can I do?
Say it's true
Oh everything that matters breaks in two
Say it's true
I'll never ask for anyone but you
Talk to me
I'm throwing myself in front of you
This could be the last mistake
That I would ever wanna do
Yeah all I ever do is give it's time you see my point of view
Just as soon as I see you
I did lie but didn't I tell you
As deep as I need you,
You wanna leave it all
What can I do?
Say it's true
Oh everything that matters breaks in two
Say it's true
I'll never ask for anyone but you
But I know all that you want is to figure it out
And god knows I do too
What can I do?
Say it's true
I'll never ask for anyone but you
I'm sorry
So what?
But you don't think I've said enough
I'm sorry
I don't care
You were never there
As soon as I see you
I did lie but didn't I tell you?
As deep as I need you
You wanna leave it all
What can I do?
Say it's true
Oh everything that matters breaks in two
Say it's true
I'll never ask for anyone but you
But I know all that you want is to figure it out
And God knows I do too
What can I do?
Say it's true
I'll never ask for anyone but you
Oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh
I'll never ask for anyone but you
Oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh
[to fade]
Hold on tight
Wrap your arms around me til your knuckles are burning white
All your tears
Couldn’t match the bitter taste of all these wasted years
You take take
Everything that wasn’t even yours
Wait wait
You don’t got a hold of me anymore
In a clear view there’s a silhouette
And I watch you and I can’t forget
Knew we were done when you locked that door
Yeah I figured it now
Breaking’s what the heart is for
When I see you
In a silhouette
And you hold close
Do you feel regret
Keeping me down when I hit that floor
And I figured it out girl
Breaking's what the heart is
For so long
I’ve had to bite my tongue but what’s the point if the feelings gone
I turn my head
Learned I only see some memory but all I see is red
Don’t don’t
Say it didn’t happen that way
I won’t won’t
Believe another word that you say
In a clear view there’s a silhouette
And I watch you and I can’t forget
Knew we were done when you locked that door
Yeah I figured it now
Breaking’s what the heart is for
When I see you
In a silhouette
And you hold close
Do you feel regret
Keeping me down when I hit that floor
And I figured it out girl
Breaking's what the heart is for
Yeah breaking’s what the heart is for
Yeah breakings’s what the heart is for
And not a soul sleeps
Another heart skips a beat
It’s every note that you wrote and I hope that you choke on the lines
You’re wasting my time, another heart beats tonight
In a clear view there’s a silhouette
And I watch you no I’ll never forget
Knew we were done when you locked that door
Yeah I figured it now
Breaking’s what the heart is for
When I see you
In a silhouette
And you hold close
Do you feel regret
Keeping me down when I hit that floor
And I figured it out girl
Breaking's what the heart is for
Yeah Breaking’s what your heart is for [x4]
and this next ones for Justine. sorry, i know its gonna sound kinda gross for you, but yeah...
"I wanna"
I never thought that I was so blind
I can finally see the truth
It’s me for you
Tonight you can’t imagine that I’m by your side
Cuz it’s never gonna be the truth
Too far for you
But can you hear me say?
Don’t throw me away
And there’s no way out
I gotta hold you somehow
I wanna I wanna I wanna touch you
You wanna touch me too
Everyday but all I have is time
Our loves the perfect crime
I wanna I wanna I wanna touch you
You wanna touch me too
Every way and when they set me free
Just put your hands on me
Take everything that I know you’ll break
And I give my life away
So far for you
But can you hear me say
Don’t throw me away
There’s no way out
I gotta hold you somehow
I wanna I wanna I wanna touch you
You wanna touch me too
Everyday but all I have is time
Our loves the perfect crime
I wanna I wanna I wanna touch you
You wanna touch me too
Every way and when they set me free
Just put your hands on me
Tonight I’m weak
It’s just another day without you
That I can’t sleep
I gave the world away for you to
Hear me say
Don’t throw me away
There’s no way out
I gotta hold you somehow
All I wanna do is touch you
I wanna I wanna I wanna touch you
You wanna touch me too
Everyday but I all I have is time
Our loves the perfect crime
I wanna I wanna I wanna touch you
You wanna touch me too
Every way and when they set me free
Just put your hands on me
[x2]
yeah, im really liking this song... even though it kinda upsets me.
Ok so ive watched the first 6 episodes of this anime, and i just went to watch the next one, and the site that im watching it on isnt letting me play it. T-T and i cant find it anywhere else. i tried youtube, veoh, surfthechannel, and this new one that the asian found called kumby. >_< im so angry. so since i couldnt watch it i decided to just look at some amvs for it on youtube. and i really like this one.
ok so me and my mom went shopping today, cause i still hadnt gotten a lot of peoples gifts, and then i ended up buying myself some stuff too. >_>
ok so i gots Michelles gift which was the new DDR game for the PS2, Fluffys which i just gave to her (it was a piercing set that i had bought for her a while ago and she was gonna pay me back, but instead i just told her itd be her x-mas gift) me is so lazy. -_- then i got my lil sis a a manga book that she wants (only cause she already bought me something and id feel like a jerk if i didnt give her something back), then i bought Chu a new climber thingy which was like $129, but i thought it was worth it since its her first Christmas and all. >_> *glares and spoiled kitty*. and i got Momiji a treat thingy. ^^
lol
Kay seems to be refusing to let me buy her something. *glares at her as well* then me and my mom were gonna go to walmart so i could get my mom her gift, but it was snowing pretty bad so we just went home. im gonna get her Wall-e, she LOVED that movie. lol, and bonus, i loved it too so i'll get to watch it with her. heeheehee. then i still need to get the Asian a gift, and i asked Nicole what she wants and she mentioned a few things, so i picked pokemon cards and some peanut butter m&ms. lol, shes so cute.
and ive had Justines gift in my closet for a while now. which im still kinda worried about that cause im not sure if shes gonna like it or not. thats why i like asking people what they want, so i know that they're gonna like it, buying someone something random is scary. o_o
and yeah, i guess thats all.
im gonna put up a pic of Chu and her $129 GIFT! *shakes fist at self for spending that much money on a FREAKING CAT!*
I still believe in summer days.
The seasons always change
and life will find a way.
Ill be your harvester of light
and send it out tonight
so we can start again.
Is love alive?
Is love alive?
Is love alive?
This is my winter song.
December never felt so wrong,
cause youre not where you belong;
inside my arms.
This is my winter song to you.
The storm is coming soon
it rolls in from the sea.
My love a beacon in the night.
My words will be your light
to carry you to me.
Is love alive?
Is love alive?
Is love alive?
Is love alive?
Is love alive?
Is love alive?
Is love alive?
Is love alive?
Is love alive?
Is love alive?
Is love alive?
Is love alive?
Is love alive?
Is love alive?
Is love alive?
Is love alive?
Is love alive?
and one more video and lyrics. ^^
"Decode"
How can I decide what’s right
When you’re clouding up my mind
I can’t win your losing fight all the time
How can I ever own what’s mine
When you’re always taking sides
But you won’t take away my pride, no not this time
Not this time…
How did we get here
When I used to know you so well
But how did we get here
I think I know…
The truth is hiding in your eyes
And it’s hanging on your tongue
Just boiling in my blood
But you think that I can’t see
What kind of man that you are
If you’re a man at all
Well I will figure this one out
On my own
I’m screaming I love you so
My thoughts you can’t decode
How did we get here
When I used to know you so well
But how did we get here
I think I know…
Do you see what we’ve done
We’re gonna make such fools of ourselves
Do you see what we’ve done
We’re gonna make such fools of ourselves
How did we get here
When I used to know you so well
But how did we get here
I think I know…
How did we get here
When I used to know you so well
But how did we get here
I think I know…
I think I know…
There is something I see in you
It might kill me
I want it to be true
now for some news...
i just bought the anime Noir. ive seen it at best buy a few times, so i finally decided to buy it for myself. it was like $75, but i thought it was worth it... kinda... idk, im not good with money, it just burns in my pocket. -_-
im also kinda confused about somethin. ive been trying to see michelle so i could talk to her about it, but shes at work and i have day hospital stuff... so im just gonna talk about it on here.
sigh
theres this guy at the hospital that im slightly attracted to... yeah. but i think its only cause hes a really horny guy and he was kinda hitting on me cause i was the only girl there for a while... even though he has a girlfriend. lol. we made our own little group there called the society of peanut butter sandwiches, ^-^ and if you said the name wrong you had to lick the floor. although that never happened. lol.
so yeah, idk, im not really trying for anything, i just wanted to tell someone about it cause its like my first kinda boy crush EVER!
