today sucks, im an emotional reck, and i really wanna go find a nice tall building to jump off of...
sorry, thats kinda all i have to say.
...
heres some Used lyrics, i love this band, almost all of there songs can relate to something im feeling.
"Noise And Kisses"
Look in my eyes
I'm jaded now whatever that means
by sharing these things
I rip my heart out
it's worth my time
whatever that means...so
hard to see up
my neck feels stiff until I wake up
the orange I choked
and back to my neck
it's worth my time
whatever that means....so
share with me
cause I need it right now
let me see your insides
or write me off
cause I'd rather starve now
if you won't open up
give it to me
give me all... whatever you want
it's never been me
to want this much from you
I can see
Yeah
share with me
cause I need it right now
let me see your insides
or write me off
cause I'd rather starve now
if you won't open up
you won't open up
it tears me up
it tears me up
it tears me up
it tears me up
look in my eyes
I'm jaded now whatever that means
by sharing these things
I rip my heart out
it's worth my time
whatever that means...so
share with me
cause I need it right now
let me see your insides
or write me off
cause I'd rather starve now
if you won't open up
won't open up
(share with me) yeah it tears me up
(cause I need it right now) tears me up (let me see your insides)
(or write me off) and it tears me up (cause I'd rather starve now)
(if you won't open up won't open up) tears me up
"Poetic Tragedy"
The cup is not half empty as pessimists say
As far as he's sees, nothing's left in the cup
A whole cup full of nothing for him to indulge
Since the voice of ambition has long since been shut up
A singer, a writer, he's not dreaming now of going nowhere
He gave heed to nothing, and all that he was....
Is just a tragedy
So he voyages in circles
Succeeds getting nowhere
And submits to the substance
That first got him there
Then in violent, frustration, he cries out to God or just no one
Is there a point to this madness and all that he was....
Is just a tragedy
He feels alone
His heart in his hand
He's alone
He feels alone
I feel....
Then on that last day he breaks
And he stood tall
And he yelled... and he takes his life
this is the last one for today i swear.
"Yesterday's Feelings"
Close my eyes and move to the back of my mind
Where worries are washed out to sea
See the changes, people's faces blurred out
Like the sun spots or raindrops
Now all those feelings, those yesterdays feelings will all be lost in time
but today I've wasted away for today is on my mind
Left the only worries I had in my hands
Away from the light in my eyes
Holding tight and try not to hide how I feel
'Cause feelings mean nothing now
All those feelings, those yesterdays feelings will all be lost in time
but today I've wasted away for today is on my mind
(yeah today is on my mind)
Now I can't care to worry
I'm feeling so lonely
Breaking apart all this love in my heart
Close my eyes and move to the back of my mind
Where feelings mean nothing now
All those feelings, those yesterdays feelings will all be lost in time (all be lost in time)
But today I've wasted away for today is on my mind
for today is on my mind
yeah today is on my mind
Now I can't care to worry
I'm feeling so lonely
Breaking apart all this love in my heart
im pretty sure my school councilor thinks im gonna do something stupid. cause i really wanna go home and just be alone today, but hes all like i really want you in school today. he acts like being at school is gonna keep my mind off shit, but the only thing that seems to be able to do that is when im watching a good anime... also i got home from work late last night, so i didnt have time to shower, so my hairs all gross today. so i just wanna go home and blast some music in the bathroom and shower, and then sit and watch anime all day. luckly i dont have work today, so thats cool...
and i guess thats it.
later peoples.
Later
And Happy Birthday you know who! 
and now ive gots to go clean the turkey cause my moms to scared to stick her hand inside it. lol
bye
"Razorblades"
Yeah, yeah
Yeah, yeah
Walking example of you
Is wait for the silence
Talking backwards to you
It meant nothing to me
Watching the world fall on you
I'm keeping my eyes closed
Now I can see what this means to you
It meant nothing to me
[Chorus]
This wasted so many nights and again
I've wasted so much time on a friend
Too young, too proud to understand
So this is the end
Perfect timing for you
(You'll run 'til your legs break)
So here's my reminder of you
It meant nothing to me
[Chorus]
This wasted so many nights and again
I've wasted so much time on a friend
Too young, too proud to understand
So this is the end
Go!
We should've seen this coming
We should've seen this...
Yeah, yeah
Yeah, yeah
[Chorus x2]
This wasted so many nights and again
I've wasted so much time on a friend
Too young, too proud to understand
So this is the end
Yeah, this is the end!
the only reason im putting this up is for this one line. "I've wasted so much time on a friend"
and i know its mean, but i was listening to this band yesterday and heard this line and it just made me cry so yeah. i dont mean anything by it. i dont think it was a waste, it was an experience... or at least thats what i keep telling myself.
later
I went to the mall today, and i gave myself a $180 limit. random i know, but i didn't want to go any lower then $300 on my card, and i had $580, so yeah...
anyways, i bought myself 3 new hoodys. a black and red one, a purple one, and one thats one of my favorite colors, which is a green blue turquoise color, which at first i didn't think would look good on me, but it wasn't that bad i guess. then i bought myself a new wallet... and then i got Justine's Christmas gift, which i wasn't planning on doing yet, i just saw it and i was like, i bet Justine would love that, so i bought it... -_- i just couldn't help myself. but afterward i was looking at it and I'm starting to think maybe i shouldn't have gotten it. like, idk. I'm just thinking she might not like it as much as i thought she would... but whatever, I'm keeping the R thingy (i cant figure out how to spell it) just in case i need to return it later and find something else.
...
but i hope she likes it.
*crosses fingers*
Now after the mall we went to see Twilight... and as i thought, it SUCKED ASS! the only people who looked like they should were Bella and James, and i could really care less about James!
Alice hardly had any scenes and i love Alice even though she looked nothing like she was supposed to. and Jasper was fuckin ugly as hell. and it looked like Edward was wearing lipstick! and Jacob looked Mexican, HES SUPPOSED TO BE INDIAN!!! AND CUTE!!! he was uglier then Jasper. and they cut out so much. and the jumping and running looked so fuckin fake. and just AAARRRGGGHHHHH!
...
I'm gonna stop now. I'm making myself angry just thinking about it and what else i could have spent my money on other then that STUPID MOVIE!!!
*sigh*
anyways, I've got work tonight from 10pm to 5am, so i should be getting to sleep, but i think instead I'm gonna watch some more of Karin (Chibi Vampire) on youtube. ^-^
so bye-bye
