OMG!
ok so my mom woke me up at 7:20 today cause my uncle david was here. and thats so freaking awesome. cause i like havent seen him in forever.
^_^
hes like my favorite relative EVER!
hes just like a kid in a 30 some year old guys body. lol.
so yeah, hes fun.
and like, hes been tellin us how things have been for him, cause he just recently found out his wife had been cheating on him with his best friend. so hes like, getting a divorce and stuff. but yeah, hes been doing pretty good. hes got a new girlfriend, (he showed me a naked pic of her on his phone. ^_^ i love this guy) he got one of his nipples pierced, which is sooooo gross i could NEVER do that. it just looks so freaking painfull. now im a masachist but id still never do that...
anyways, he found out im a lesbian, and he thought that was great. so yeah, hes completely fine with it. lol. he got me alone for a while and was asking me if i smoke or drink. and i told him ive tried smoking but i dont like it and i told him about how sammy slipped me some vodka. lol, he thought that was pretty funny. and i told him about how ive been trying to watch some porn and he gave me a website that i could go to. and i just did. (im on his laptop in my room while him and my mom talk) and wow... i think im a prude or something cause none of that looked hot to me. it all just looks so gross. i mean even if i had a nice body i could never imagine me doing any of that. -_- so yeah, that sucks. it may sound weird, but i really wish i wasnt so prudish. i wish i was into that stuff, but im just not. i mean i like touching (and i dont mean anything really bad just like, physical contact), and kissing looks like fun, but thats it, everything else just looks disgusting to me...
*sigh*
i really suck.
its no wonder why everyone leaves me.
im like, the most boring person i know.
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i think ive said that before on here. with that same exact wording to.
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anyways, now for other news.
i got the near shirt, although it does have a pocket. i was to lazy to try and find one without. and yeah, it looks horrible on me. like, i tried on the whole cosplay and i look retarded. and i dont think ive ever worn that much white in my life.
lol.
i also went food shopping for acen, cause justines mom wont let justine by food for other people.
*shakes fist*
and yeah, i got doritos, 4 boxes of pocky, cookies, and gushers, cause justine mentioned the other day that she hasnt had them in a while. ^_^
and then i think Justines gonna bring ramen. and ill probably bring some paper bowls and forks. (last time we brought ramen, but didnt have any bowls)
and yeah, i think thats it.
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oh, wait, you all know how ive been like SUPER depressed lately, and kinda angry. well yeah, ive been doing a lot of thinking, and i think, if it doesnt let up after next week, then im gonna look into getting me some meds, cause im sick of feeling like this. im just angry all the time, and i like, never smile or laugh. not for real anyways. so yeah, i just thought id tell you all that. and it probably doesnt sound like a big deal, but it is to me. i like trying to fix my own problems, i dont like taking meds to help me. it makes me feel weak. and i only mean that for mental things, like i take pain meds all the time. lol.
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yeah.
one more thing, is i got a new book called the host, and its by the same person who's writing the twilight series. i had read about it on her site, but i didnt know it was out until i saw it at walmart yesterday. so yeah, i bought it. but i had to put back the movie i wanted to bye.
oh oh oh! i watched a movie called wristcutters last night, (it took me forever to get my mom to let me rent it) and it was great. well mayb not great, but it was funny. the whole thingis just like when you commit suicide, you go to this other world, and its just like the real world except more depressing. and like the only people who are there, are people who have commited suicide, and for some reason they cant smile there... but yeah, its a romance/ comedy movie, and i recomend it. ^_^
i also got the heartbreak kid, cause Justine said it was really funny. so im gonna watch that tonight.
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and now i is going to go.
me want to go spend some more time with david.
hes actually put me in a pretty good mood, i was really dreading today, cause i thought i would have to much free time, but i think todays gonna be a good day.
see you all later.
bye.
