Wow, this year just flew by... well not really, lol. during the year i just thought time wasnt moving at all, but now im sad that its over. just one more year... Heh, one more year to WHAT? what the hells so great about graduating anyways. sure, you get out of school, but then what? then your just out on your own, probably all alone, unless youve got someone. but what the hell happens to us people who dont have anybody. you know what, im actually not very excited about graduating anymore. im kinda dreading it. and i know its like a year from now, but i worry about stuff like this a lot... and way before i need to start worrying about it. i also get the feeling that this summer and next year are going to suck. idk why, i just do, and im usually right about those kinda things... i also think this week is gonna suck, but im really hoping that changes.
*crosses fingers*
Oh, im supposed to sleep over at Kays house on friday, so i guess that will cheer me up if my week sucks. she has this way of making me smile even when ive had the worst day ever. i wish i could do that for someone, where all they have to do is look at me and it makes them smile.
*sigh*
the only reason anyone would smile at me like that would probably be because i look funny...
T-T
oh well, its a nice thought i guess.
but ill probably never mean anything to anyone...
sorry, im in a kinda depressing mood.
although i guess to some people im always depressing.
so sorry for being miserable. its not like i like being depressed, or never having anything to talk about.
SO SORRY FOR BEING BORING!
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yeah, im also kinda angry.
if you couldnt tell.
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god i hate this.
this morning the asian said ive changed. because the whole, i dont get sad anymore, i just get angry. and she thinks its a good change, but i dont. id much rather just go back to getting sad and cutting myself. at least that didnt bother anyone. now i get angry and im starting to take it out on other people. and im usually not like that. i take everything out on myself, and blame myself, and i like that... its much better then taking it out on other people. especially when those other people are my friends.
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Hm, the bells gonna ring in like 5 minutes.
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what else to complain about?
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im kidding, ill leave now.
(god my humor sucks)
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later
