Yeah, so i screwed things up again... you'd think that after a while i would just stop, but no, i just keep fucking everything up.
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There must be something wrong with me. I'm so fucking stupid. I couldnt just... I'm such an idiot. Why do i have to mess everything up. Every fucking good thing that happens, i just have to ruin it...
I'm so fucking stupid... so fucking stupid.
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Whatever. I guess I'll get over it sooner or later. its really not that big of a deal i guess... I'll survive. Right? Everything will turn out in the end... right?
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Dammit. I'm so fucking stupid.
Sorry, you guys dont have to comment on this one. its mainly just for me. I gotta bring myself back down, or its just gonna hurt more. i gotta lower my confidence back down to the normal negative area. or I'm gonna do something stupid again.
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again, I'm sorry about this.
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later
