Ok so i havent posted in a while, how has everyone been?
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ok so my mom and i just got into an argument, cause i got a job at white castel. (Yay!) and im supposed to be going to alabama to visit my dying grandma, and i forgot to tell them about it, so now shes freaking out... ok, i just talked to her some more. (she yelled at me) and i guess im staying here. but now shes pissed off at me, although she says shes not pissed shes just hurt cause i dont wanna see my grandma. i mean, i know it sounds cruel but i really dont wanna go. its a fucking 12 hour drive there and back, its hot as hell there, boring as hell, and i tend to gain weight when im there cause my grandma cooks enough for a freaking army, and if we dont eat it all then her feelings are hurt. SO FUCK! why the hell would anyone in there right mind wanna go. i get it, shes dying, im probably never gonna see her again, but i really dont care. i mean i care that shes dying, and i feel bad and all, but its not like seeing her is that big a deal. we just saw her at the begining of the summer. nothing new has happened... *sigh* this is so stupid, now i get to stay home, but i have to deal with my mom being a complete bitch for probably the whole time before she leaves, and maybe a week after she gets back. and shes making my aunt debbie stay here with me. and debbie can be really fun and nice sometimes, but she can also be a know it all bitch... and i was hoping to have some alone time, but she doesnt have a job so shes gonna be here all the fucking time. T-T god this sucks...
anyways, sorry for complaining to all of you. i guess ill just stop and talk about my past few days, with little to no detail.
ok so i saw aimee 2 more times with michelle, and over all it was good. there was a little bit of awkwardness, but it didnt last long. then i hung out with Justine today at her place her a while, then she came over to my place for a while. so yeah, that made me really happy. although now after all this shit with my mom im pretty depressed... god, sometimes i really hate my mom. i mean she can be nice, but sometimes shes just such a fucking bitch.
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ok i just talked to her some more. so i guess im gonna tell the people at work about it, but if they really need me there then ill stay, but if they're understanding and are ok with it, then i guess ill go... which sucks but whatever, i guess if it means shes not angry at me for a month then its worth a week in hell... and at least that way id get my tattoo. and the new twilight book thats coming out tomorrow at midnight that she said shed buy me... wow, im a heartless selfish bitch. my grandmas dying and all i care about is money a tattoo and a new book... Heh, i really am going to hell.
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yeah i guess im done now.
talk to you all later.
bye
