lol, no, its nothing that great.
i think part of why I'm always so depressed is just because i don't trust anyone. so I'm simply going to start trusting people. well only a certain few... yeah, that sounds stupid, but i really think its just that simple. a simple solution for a simple problem. and that means I'm going to stop doubting everyone... or at least I'm going to try. actually i think it'll be pretty easy. I'm good at convincing myself of things, except I've never tried to convince myself of good things... only bad things. so that will be interesting. instead of repeating they hate me in my head multiple times, I'll just have to repeat they like me. lol, yeah I'm REALLY simple minded. ^_^
In a way i guess I'm just setting myself up to get hurt. but i don't think you can really have a happy life unless you take risks you know.
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i don't know. this sounds really stupid now, but it sounded great when i was brushing my teeth this morning. (thats when i first started thinkin about this stuffs) and i was like amazed with this realization.
lol, whatever. i think I'm gonna be at least a little happier now. i just gotta work on thinking positive, and actually believing what people tell me.
*nods*
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although now I'm not sure what I'm gonna say to people. like I'm horrible with taking complements. i always just say that they're lying, but now i wont be able to do that... so what the hell do i say? thanks... that sounds so stupid.
would it be mean to not say anything... it would probably make things awkward.
Meh, i guess its not a big deal, i don't get very many complements anyways.
Oh I'm also going to try to stop dissing myself... at least in front of people. I'll keep those thoughts to myself.
^_^
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yeah, i like this. its gonna be hard, but i like a challenge... thats a lie, i hate challenges... but I'm still gonna do it.
me is motivated for the first time in my life.
^_^
Yay smiles, i don't think I've done any smiley's on here this whole week.
^_^
which by the way, I'm sorry i was so down this week. -_- me just needed to thinks about some stuffs.
and i thought and i have hope... Hm, i feel like i'm gonna jinx myself or something.
ok i was gonna put a pic up but me dont feel like searching for one.
So... me goes now.
BYE-BYE
^_^
