sorry, i suck at coming up with a title.
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T-T
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yeah...
me is bored.
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i have free in drivers right now so im in the library, and i have nothing to do.
im probably going to end up just reading a fanfic...
which is fine i guess.
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Um, as for news there really isnt any.
my confidence is back to its normal level... which is somewhere in the negatives.
so yeah.
me isnt too happy about that. i was hoping it would stay up for a while, but it only lasted like 2 days...
so that really sucks.
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im really boring today... and i mean like more then usual boring.
i need to find myself a life.
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sorry, me is depressing today.
Justine said i should go see if im clinically depressed... which isnt a bad idea, but then what do i do? ive done the whole meds thing and they dont work with me. i think half of the effect with pills is just that the person thinks its going to work so it works you know. i mean im sure the pills do help, but some of it is just if you believe that it will work or not. and i refuse to believe that some pill will make my life better. so yeah, pills dont work on me... but i guess it would be nice to know if im clinically depressed. i mean it would explain a lot... Hm, i bet i could just look up what it means to be clinically depressed and just see if i fit the description. and then just say that i am... i mean i probably am. Justines clinically depressed and she said that im "a very depressing person." i mean if i can make a clinically depressed person more depressed, then ive gotta be REALLY depressing... so yeah, im not gonna waste my money on some doc, i'll just consider myself clinically depressed.
^_^
yay me!
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sorry, that "yay me" was completely sarcastic.
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Hm, so heres what i found.
Depression is a serious medical condition with a variety of symptoms. Emotional symptoms can include sadness, loss of interest in things you once enjoyed, feelings of guilt or worthlessness, restlessness, and trouble concentrating or making decisions. Physical symptoms can include fatigue, vague aches and pains, headaches, and changes in weight or sleep patterns. For some, depression can include thoughts of death or suicide.
Hah, i fit that perfectly, i mean i even have worthless as my loveless name. thats great.
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*5 minutes later*
ok me is bored again.
i was hoping that would take up some time but i found it right away.
stupid fast internet.
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thats a lie, i love fast internet.
*pets computer*
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Hm?
what else is there to talk about.
we could talk about how im such a fucking failure, but i have a feeling none of you would care about that...
Um?
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yeah ive got nothing.
guess ill go try and find a good yuri to read.
later
