This is my life. It goes with my other world, Angel of Music (http://www.theotaku.com/worlds/angel_of_music). Whatever I post here, I post a song that I'm either currently listening to, or matches what i am feeling and dealing with. leave your thoughts

wow...

so yea.. i'm back... wow... its been... a long ass freakin' time since i was last on this site! omg! my last post was when ken broke up with me... that friggen asshole?? wow... okay, so, need to update....
umm. ken's a jerk. i hate his guts. we're supposedly friends.. dunno how he thinks that when he ignores me and has some bias against me (neither kayla and i can figure that one out) i just got dumped by my latest boyfriend, Brandon. and now HE'S going through depression and shit and my life is one hell of a drama.. gotta love that!!!

Well, now i'm on www.animecrazy.com. i am angel of music on there if any of you guys are on there and for some unknown reason, i can't access myOtaku right now... stupid computer. i was gonna update and everything! daggumit!

no longer his girl

The exact thing i feared would happen has finally happened... Ken broke up with me. I'm in so much pain. I don't understand why. This has left me so broken hearted and crushed. How could he so suddenly fall out of love with me? Part of me wonders where I went wrong. He still wants to be friends, but Ken is too dear to me and I love him too much. He could never be just a friend to me. He will always be so much more to me.

ARGH!!!

-_- one of the number one things i hate happened this morning. For the past couple of days, i've been missing my boyfriend, Ken. We havn't talked on the phone for a week. I understand that he's extremly busy with life and its hard for him to find time for me, but he could at least return my bloody calls!!!!!! Well, last night, i broke down and cried while on the phone with Brandon. I was up till about 3 in the morning due to inability to fall asleep. Well, this morning when i was on Facebook, i saw that Ken had gotten on the internet about 3 in the damn morning. Why is it i keep missing him? It throughly got me upset with myself. Why did i have to get so upset and depressed that at 2:30 i signed out of msn and missed my beloved by at least 30 minutes??? I hate my life at times. This long distance relationship is harder than i realized, and alot more painful. But i love Ken too much to break it off. i despretly want this to work out and i will do whatever i can to make sure we stay together. I pray he is wanting to do the same thing.