NOTE: Yes I did write a poem thislong, it's from Ren's POV, it's pretty old

She wears a fake smile, many times everyday, during the day she tries to smile, during the day she hides her true self, during the night she cries silent invisible tears, ones that no one understands, no one, but me, She acts like she's happy, she acts like she's fun, but behind it all, she couldn't be filled with more tears, Few times she actually smiles for real, and wen she does it is only for a few seconds, those few seconds, I charish, what I honestly despise, is when she puts on that fake smile for other people,she acts like there is nothing to be sad about,she acts like nothing in her life could be wrong, but the truth is, that's the farthest thing from reality, people ask how it's possible,for her to be happy all the time, but she never answers them, the reason is, that behind closed doors, that seemingly bright aura, fades to a deep, deep, black, I didn't no her as a child, but from wat people say, I've created a false memory for myself, back then that fake smile was real, back then she never cried at night, back then she never cried at all, I can't explain her, It's too hard a task, She has a bright violet aura of purity, but at the same time she has such a dark blue aura that it's sometimes black, how is it possible that a girl with such a pure aura has one that is also so lonely and depressed, so filled with sorrow, that any moment I think she will forever fade into the darkness of the shadows, how could it be with an almost black aura, that this girl posseses such purity that she can hold it in her hands and light up a room, the two colors merge to create Indigo, at once she posseses the look of a pure wite Angel with that purple glow and all of a sudden, it turns to a black color, the one that of an angel of sorrow, how can she be both at once? She wears a fake smile, yet that purity is forever real, at any moment she can lift off the ground, wen she thinks I am asleep I will watch her lie there thinking for an hour or more, the purity in her soul is enough to let me see in the dark, to see the look on her face, to see the look that she is at once about to, and not about to, to...CRY I above all people should no her pain and suffering, I above all people should no her heart, and I above of all people will make this smile the one I charish, the real one, reappear everyday, yet she has one more smile, a cross between the two, she'll be on her nees hands cupped over them, tea~ceromony style I'll touch her shoulder and she'll tilt her head letting her hair drop to her arm and she smiles a fake meak smile that anyone could see through, she has long flowing hair and a gown to match, she wears a fake smile but I love her anyway, some day I promise, I will make that fake smile forever go away
This is her trueself, the one she tries to hide, even though she hates shields she admits, she needs one to survive
This is her fake smile the one she uses to hide her sorrow, wen I lie in bed at night I hope I don't have to see this one tomorrow
This is her meak smile the one you can see through if only she would realize sometimes I wear a fake smile too
This is her real smile the thing I love about her most of all I hope someday I can make her other faces plunge into a fall
I promise you my love, that no matter wat someday, I will make your fake smile forever go away