I'm Not

I'm not going to thank you for making me stronger,
I'm not going to forgive you for staining my skin,
I'm not going to forget about these scars that are slashed on my heart,
I'm not loseing sleep over you,
With any luck,
I'm not going to remember you someday,
I'm never going to completely heal,
The scars are too deep for that,
No magic can help heal them,
Not even time completly,
I'm doing this to seal away all these things,
To lock them in a box and never open it,
It's getting easier to talk about,
I'm doing this to say the things I didn't say,
"I'm NOT comeing back,"
"You hurt me terribly,"
"I won't let you forget,"
These scars are only skin deep now,
I'm finally smileing and laughing and creating,
I don't have to act like I'm ok anymore,
Because this time I really am,
I don't care if you remember me,
I care that no one else is hurt like I was,
I realize now that I didn't run away,
But sometimes retreating is the stronger choice,
And I'm anything but weak,
I'm not afraid anymore,
And the open wounds have closed,
I'm not trying to hold onto this,
I'm just not going to let it go

End