I'm back~! :DDD
And here to explain.
... Ohmygoodness.
Where do I begin...? ;u;
Alright... let's do this in a simple numbered format :D
1. So, where the heck were you? D:<
Where I always was... just not on theO >u<`
2. Why did you leave for so long? =_=
Okay, this might be long.
You may have noticed that my 'birthday' has changed since my old account... that's because the first one wasn't real. And neither is this one. ._. I'm not sure if I'll get kicked off for this, but I'm the kind of person who prefers not to give my real birthday online... it just doesn't seem safe to me. So I don't. It's just for security reasons. Sorry :/
And what does that have to do with this question, you ask?
Well, *strokes long white beard wisely* you see, one uneventful summer a few years ago, I was at the peak of my otaku stage.... yep, I was quite the geek. :3 And I was just surfing the internet one day and happened to find this website through some fanart or a quiz or something. I looked around and decided that I wanted to share my (fail) fanart too. So I absent-mindedly made an account, not intending to do anything other than post some ugly drawings.
But guess what? One day, I happened to comment on someone's art or post or something, I forget, and I made a friend. Then another one. Then about 50 more. At that point, I felt like I actually had made some good friends and leaving the site was unimaginable.
This stage went on for a year or so, then my life completely changed.
(Many may not be able to relate to this, but oh well)
Another uneventful summer, my friend invited me to a church retreat. At first, I was reluctant and thought, "meh..." then I ended up thinking, "Well, I might as well go."
And that was one of the best decisions I had ever made, because that retreat was a huge wake-up call for me. I felt as if I had been reborn 100 times happier, healthier, and probably a lot more. I had dedicated myself to Jesus. Before this, I was just a Christian by name. I didn't really care about my religion. After this retreat, though, I developed faith; actual faith, and I don't really consider Christianity much of a religion anymore, but more as a relationship with Christ. After leaving that retreat, I saw the world in a whole new way.
I realized that I had my priorities all mixed up-- I couldn't keep living like I was before. I remember that I talked trash about my mom, I complained that she was mean and blah blah blah. (But don't worry; since then God has really worked in our lives and we get along soooo much better now. ^^) I was just being a big baby. I spent way too much time on here-- you could even call me sort of an internet addict. At this time, I wasn't even 13 yet. That's why I never intended to make any friends on here; so I wouldn't feel like I was continually deceiving and lying to them. In the end, it was just awkward, and I knew that it was wrong. So I gathered up my resolve and decided to just wait.
And I did.
I took a break until I was old enough to actually be on here, but by that time I think I had forgotten all about it... my username, password, most of that stuff. Haha, my memory is awful xDD It was quite lame, actually. =u=`
So then I waited some more... and found AlexaClyne on deviantArt! :DDD And then I went... oh crap, did I forget something??? o____o`
And yup, I did. I forgot about you guys. XD
But here I am now, and I really want a fresh new start... =u=`
So I hope you guys will forgive me and forget all of my childishness from before...! ^^
3. Too long, didn't read. Summarize, please~? :D
Okey-dokey.
~When I was in elementary school, I was a socially deprived couch potato who loved anime/manga/stuff like that.
~I found this website one day and decided to make some fake account to post my doodles and not make any friends.
~I was a creepy 5th grader who just browsed this site and looked at stuff-- mostly art.
~I made friends. ._.
~I forgot about my priorities and spent too much time on the internet.
~I went to a church retreat with my friend and really accepted God into my life.
~I realized, after that, that I had everything all wrong. I needed to snap back into focus. I needed a lot of time off this website. I needed to wait.
~I didn't even know how much time had passed since I first made the account... quite a lot of time.
~Even after I qualified to join again, I still waited. I was afraid to face you guys again, haha XD But I know I've got nothing to worry about; you guys are awesome.
~I lamely forgot my password.
~I made this account.
~Here I am :DDDD
4. That was still quite long.
Yes, yes it was. It's the most shortened version I can make. XD
5. So you're a liar?
I was.
And I sincerely apologize. D': Those were probably some of the worst years of my life (socially, mentally, spiritually...), and I needed some sort of outlet for my bottled-up little kid frustration. =u=` Glad that's over.
But I made up my mind at retreat that I'd be truthful to you guys.
(I don't feel safe giving away my real information about my birthday, though, so I hope you guys can understand that >v<`) But don't worry, by now I definitely qualify to join xD I don't even know how many years it's been since I first started prowling around on this site inactively. ._.`
6. And if I ask more questions, you'll do your best to answer them?
Yes. :D
7. Truthfully?
Double yes. :D
(If I trust you. xD)
8. Anything else you'd like to say? :3
YES.
First of all, thank you guys so much for being so understanding so far ;u; I love you guys. I really don't want to make any more lies. ^^
Also, special thanks to kandafan and LightFykki, 2 friends who really tried to keep my old Ronald world alive >u<` I really appreciate your efforts, even though I wasn't here! You guys are really awesome :') I might try to re-launch the Ronald world again, but we all seem busier now, so if we have time xD
OH.
AND ALSO, SOMETHING REALLY IMPORTANT.
I remember, before I left, I held a contest... I think it was to make an Espada OC or something.
And I think I remember offering prizes to those who won.
AND GOODNESS, I NEVER EVEN GOT TO MAKE THEM YET!!!! D':
Ahhhh. I feel awful, I really do. But I forgot who won my contest! >_>` oh dear...
So if anyone can help me locate it I'd really appreciate it! >u< But don't take too much time to; it's my responsibility and I should take care of it. :3
Ahhh.
I feel terrible about that... XD
So, that's about it, guys... I hope I answered most of your questions in this (long xD) explanation. If you have any more questions I'll be happy to answer them :)Sorry if this spiritual stuff seems awkward to you, but it's just made such a huge difference in my life. ^^ Again, I sincerely apologize for all that's happened >_<`
And now to end on a better note! ^u^
Tadaaah~
Rickroll'd :DDD
Alright then, that concludes my explanation for now =u=
Thank you guys, so much. :D
