These past few weeks have been horribly hectic..what with looking for a job, post graduation, scrambling to hang out with friends before they leave for vacation, and getting ready for my sister's wedding(which is, in fact, tomorrow!)
The cake is complete and I'm glad about that. Had one of my best friend's dad's make it..it's wonderful so far..and I can't wait to see it completed tomorrow. Pretty sure me and my mom are going to be blubbering when my sister gets married. It's not a fancy wedding or anything like that...but still...I'm really excited. It's about time that she got married, haha.
Anyway...Although today I was far more irritable than normal...I got the flowers for the cake and delivered them safely. I still need to clean up the rest of my room and get it presentable for when my cousins come over this weekend...Had to hide like..all of my Yaoi books so I have SO much more space on my bookshelves now LOL. Ugh...a lot of my artwork will be needed to be hid as well. *snorts*
Speaking of artwork...I need to freaking draw. I keep saying that I'm going to, and then it never happens. But I'm thinking about sending in entries to a lot of challenges..and hopefully those will get me to draw.
Anywho, on with why today was good:
Just awhile ago I was playing Clock Tower3 with my little brother. It's such a freaky game...really make you jump right out of your skin. My brother seemed to be really interested in it and he watched me, and even helped me out a little bit when I was stuck. He's such a sweet-heart..I really don't give him the credit he deserves.. He's got a slight learning delay..so he's not quite at the level most 16 year old boys are usually at..but that's alright... We rarely actually spend time together, and I never know HOW I should or what I should talk to him about..But it was fun playing that game with him and having a small little bonding moment. I really do love him, and I hope he knows that..even though I act like a total witch sometimes toward him :[
Anywho...since it's only freaking TEN at night(seems like it should be MUCH later) maybe I'll start on those pictures...maybe...lol
After the events of the past few days, today is a lazy day...I just kinda feel like chilling by myself and taking it easy. Especially since tomorrow I'll need to start cleaning my room if I wanna do anything over the weekend. (which, Honestly, I don't think I want to..but this girl who invited me over is gonna guilt-trip me if I don't =___= I hate being a pushover)
Anywho..to all my loves out there I love you xD You know who you are. I'll prolly be on MSN later tonight. C: <3 <3
I'M OFF TO GO FIND SOMETHING TO DOOO!
Well, yesterday was certainly interesting. It was humid and gross outside for most of the day, with a spot of clouds lazing across the sky. Then, around 7 pm or so..it started POURING. There was no warning drizzle or pitter patter of raindrops to start us off with. Nope. It was like God took a bucket of water and just splashed it on us and it didn't STOP. It was thundering and there was a lot of lightning outside (which was flashing almost a PINKISH color by the way...it was cool) Anywho, as we watched the news, it said that a funnel(of a tornado) had been spotted RIGHT outside my city.
In an effort to be safe rather than sorry, my parents rallied me, my brother, and my cat into our tiny little bathroom. And there we waited with our flashlights, storm radio, and my yowling feline.
Then the power went out. Yaaay!
To make it short, the storm finally died down and so me and my family went out to survey the damage. Luckily it wasn't TOO bad..though we DO have a hole in our roof now and our neighbor's branch from their tree nearly crashed into our roof. So, after that, all we could do was sit around and wait to see when the power would get on and listen to the radio for anymore information. It took THREE hours for the power to come back.
Then an hour later it died again : [ I went to bed around 1, and it was still out, so I dunno when it finally turned back on.
Seems we're still in for some more gross weather...But hopefully the power won't go out again...otherwise I'll have to draw by candlelight...Won't that be interesting?
Speaking of drawing--I'm finally putting up some stuff. It's not a lot. but check it out, if you please : )
That's right everyone. Yesterday I officially graduated highschool. It was the most surreal feeling... Listening to the speeches and waiting to walk up on the stage to take my diploma..
Oh...and then..I fell down the stairs.
YEP
I have a legacy to pass on to my children--I FELL DOWN THE STAIRS AT MY GRADUATION.
LOL, I actually thought it was hilarious, though..I wasn't devastated at all. It happened right after I got my diploma. I was walking down the stairs to head back to my seat..I looked up to see if I could find my parents...Bad mistake when you're wearing heels and the stairs are a little wobbly anyway. So I fell..just on my knees though. So I didn't fall flat on my face or flash anyone lol. And not everyone saw, so it wasn't made into a big deal xD"
But yeah...I just had to laugh it off...No reason to get upset right?
So yeah...now all I have to do is struggle to get a job..hip-hip hurray..I'm worried about my job at Cicis..I feel like it's pointless to hold onto it..but my parents insist I should until I find another job..ugh...I'm gonna go tomorrow and check my schedule...though I doubt I'm working this week either. Oh well. Gotta bite the bullet..and hopefully good things will come my way!
Bah.
I need to upload some crap--better get to work on things now..
Yep, another post for today.
It's hard to believe that my graduation is literally just around the corner. In three days, I will be over and done with grade school. That's what I'm hoping for at least.
It's been a hard, long journey--and to be honest I wish that I had traveled a different road than I have been. I've been lazy and neglectful for as long as I can remember when it came to school. I've never really liked school, after all, there's no real reason to in my eyes. I'm not particularly a social butterfly, I'm easily distracted, I day dream, I hate being confined...I'm so glad to be free from this iron wrought cage that I was stuffed into and expected to SOAK the knowledge that would never help me in the future. As if I care what 'y' or 'x' equals...as if I really want to find the molarity of an ionic element or whatever the hell they want. And yet, it's those very things that will keep me from graduating if I don't find them. The pressure is building, and I don't know whether to scream until my ears bleed, or cry until I just can't anymore. I want to make my parents proud SO so badly...and I can't even express how much I owe them. For being patient with me, for being there to cheer me on or give me that shove I need to get myself on track again.
I'm tired of making my mom cry from grief, I'm ready to see her cry because she's proud of me..I'm ready to stop giving my mom and dad gray hairs.
On the offhand of me being so excited about graduation..I'm also extremely terrified. What awaits me in the future? What if I'm not successful? What do I want to DO with myself? There's so much I still don't know to prepare me for the 'grown-up' life. I don't want to experience the dreaded reality-checks..I need some sort of survival guide that will plot everything out for me and save me from completely screwing myself over.
I'm hoping this summer will go really well..I'm worried about finding a job, and paying my parents back...I'm kind of annoyed with myself for asking them for money all the time when I already owe them plenty. God, I'm such a horrible child. I wish there was a way to get money fast...Hopefully I can get that VOLT job or whatever it is...and hopefully it pays good. I won't even care about the hours...most of my friends will probably be gone on vacation anyway. Plus, bottom line I need money. I need to pay my parents back, buy new clothes, pay for college, buy my costumes for the future anime conventions, pay for said conventions...Lord, can I just please win the lottery? That would be great.
I'm really hoping to loose some weight over the summer too..I need to start pushing myself to do so..I've got a bit of extra junk in my trunk that I want to get rid of...I'll be starting a whole new chapter of my life, after all..so I'd like to start in a way that will give me a boost of confidence. Or something like that anyway.
Alright, I need to study for chemistry...because I can't afford to get lower than a 70..hopefully that won't be TOO hard to achieve.
