I just need to rant. About stupid things that are keeping me up, making me want to cry, even though they probably shouldn't.

I'm just so pissed off..No, I'm passed that stage. I'm hurt. My feelings have been obliterated like they were nothing, by someone who should consider my feelings like a sensible person, seeing as how we've known each other practically our whole lives.

Today is the football game, my brother is marching in the band, and tradition calls for my family to go to the game and cheer him on. Usually I don't mind going..Sometimes I look forward to it. But for the past week and a half, I've been dreading tomorrow. I don't want to see my sister. I don't want to talk to her, I don't want to hear her voice. I'm so irritated with her right now and her complete disregard toward my emotions.

The reasoning for being upset is probably stupid, but it doesn't change the fact that I'm so angry at her. I hate when people break their promises. So, so much. Important promises. Don't promise to go somewhere with me so we can 'sisterly bond', then suddenly decide to go with your friends instead and not even tell me. No, I had to find out through fucking facebook. I was excited about the idea of going. I thought WE were supposed to go together...Thanks for choosing your stupid friends, who live right by you, over me, who you barely see or talk to at all anymore thanks to our busy schedules. Thanks for giving me a half-assed apology and making me feel like I'm only second best when it comes to your friends. You could have asked me if I wanted to go. Your friends know me, I doubt they'd feel awkward with me around. Even if they did, tell them to GET OVER IT. I'm your SISTER. Family comes first, doesn't it?

I'm so scared to see her. I don't want to act like everything is okay, because it's not. And I know she'd make me feel stupid if I told her I was still upset over this. She wouldn't get it. I just feel betrayed..and completely disregarded.