I'm feeling kind of emo-ish right now..I'm just in a funk.

I'm really sick of not feeling pretty enough or skinny enough. I'm sick of feeling like I'm going to grow old and die alone. I know it sounds overly dramatic..but I'm 19 and I've never had a LEGIT boyfriend before...There have been guys who like me..but no one worth-while..And I'm sure they're only settling for me because they can't get anyone else..

I'm jealous of my friends, and I hate that. Jealous that they've been in relationships and that they have boys who want to take them out on dates and spend time with them. Then again, I understand it's hard for me to meet people..my college is full of antisocial people who only talk to those within a chair's length of them usually and I work with a bunch of people who are far too old for me. I'm not looking for anything long-term, honestly..Though if it turns out that way it's fine..I just don't want to feel invisible or unappealing.

Eh..Whatever. Sorry, I know I'm just feeling sorry for myself for stupid reasons.

Over and Out.