It's NOT okay!? NOT!!! Except for the part that I suck at art and I want to die D': I see everybody else getting SO good and I'm..just..in the same spot I was a year ago ._.
I guess It's my own fault for not doing anything..I keep saying I will and then it never happens. I guess it's just that I feel like I don't have any reason to draw anymore. I'm not(or wasn't) planning on perusing a career in it anymore and my best friend had stopped drawing..And I tend to draw for other people, not for myself. So I guess I just felt deep inside that there was no point. When I'd start to draw...If no one else was around to show it to, I'd just loose interest.
Pathetic, I'm sure..I should draw for MYSELF not for others..but..Eh..
Oh well, my friend has gotten back into drawing again at last :) I think we both need to overcome this horrible artistblock that's stretched on for too long..SO hopefully I'll get over myself soon and start posting up stuff again...
I really want to get my new tablet/a new tablet pen soon so I can start going on tegaki again and actually get good at it..and I just got photoshop installed on my computer again..so I really wanna hurry and be able to actually use it!
So yeah..I guess this WAS sort of an emo post..but..what I'm TRYING to get to is that I'm going to start posting stuff again. I HAVE to. I really need to. And I want to get back in contact with all my old internet buddies again, too..because I feel like I have nothing in common with them anymore and that we never talk..and it makes me really sad :(
Here's to hoping..
