Don't worry guys, I'm not upset. Not really...
Ha, I think it's funny how I haven't posted something in forever...and then all of a sudden, I'm a posting maniac *rolls eyes*

I just got to thinking about my parent's anniversary...I want to write them a letter...and tell them the things I never could. How proud I am of them, how much I love them...and that I wish I could be the perfect daughter they deserve. They've been together for almost 26 years, and have given me 18 years of complete and utter love. In all honesty, I don't deserve them. But I thank god that I have them...and I realize how lucky I am. I'm so terrified of loosing them when i tell them about me and my girlfriend...I couldn't care if the rest of the world hated me...but if my parents were to...It would shatter my heart--I'd NEVER ever be able to fix it. Thinking of it..makes me feel so hopeless and lost. I wish there was someone I could talk to...I'm too terrified to talk to my cousins or my sister..None of them would understand...I think that's been a part of the reason I've been so upset and stressed. I'm tired of having to go through EVERYTHING on my own.. But that's just how it is. That's how its always been ever since I could remember. Probably not the most healthy lifestyle..but I can't help it.

I dunno..I got to thinking about all I could say...and came to tears so fast, it was kind of pathetic. I just hope everything works out...I keep saying it'll all be worth it to be with my girlfriend...but can I really handle it if my parents cast me away...? I just pray that they won't...

AUGH..okay...well..I'm not going to think about that anymore right now!! >< NO depressing stuff! Just needed to word vomit my feelings a bit.