- Created By bellpickle
bleh.
- Ten page paper due on Monday at 7PM, bleeeeeeeeeeeeeeh.
- So many things to say I don't even know where to begin! :/
- I feel like I've been academically comatose for the past week. I have just... not been doing work. Thank God break is coming up! It's been a very B semester.
- I've spent much of my free time playing Dragon Age: Origins on DHB's PS3 and watching the Korean variety show We Got Married. Kim Hyun Joong & Hwangbo = <3
- In this period of academic coma, I've basically lived with DHB. This was also to escape the bed bugs. Today I was promoted to his unofficial roommate. :3
- The two of us went to an Asian grocery store in Columbus a few days ago. For less than eight dollars, I bought: 2 Koala Yummies, some other Lotte chocolate biscuit snack, butter coconut biscuits, and a Korean noodle bowl. :)
- I feel like my roommate (actual roommate, lol) and I have forged a much deeper bond over the past couple months. She's had a much harder life than me from the sounds of it. Oftentimes, I really don't know what to tell her. :(
- One of my closest friends here will most likely be starting his last week at Kenyon this Monday. Still not entirely sure how I feel about that. What makes things even more difficult for me is that the whole thing is a secret from everyone except a select few. But DHB found out through means that are still uncertain to me. He hasn't talked about it to me directly, though he's brought it up to (many) other people. Not sure how things are gonna play out once this semester ends and everyone finds out for sure.
- DHB and I argue a lot more now than we did last year, lol. I don't think that's necessarily a bad thing, though. It's probably inevitable considering how much time we spend around each other now. We handle what ever problems we do have with each other pretty well, so... c'est la vie!
WAT.
I THINK I HAVE BED BUGS. FUCK. THIS IS WHAT I GET FOR LIVING IN MY OWN FILTH.
Well, damn. (cont.)
This guy, along with Kim Hyun Joong, will soon be the death of me. Or of my GPA. Whichever comes first! x_x
Getting back into K-Pop has helped me get my mind off of the more stressful aspects of my life right now, which I'm def. thankful for! And even though I pulled an all-nighter, I got that essay finished, damnit!!!
Thanks for...?
There's an annual Thanksgiving dinner held for a small group of people at Kenyon the week before break. Last year, when announcing what I was thankful for, I said something like, "I truly appreciate all of the wonderful people I know both here and elsewhere, and for all the people who have helped me grow since arriving at Kenyon."
This year, I said, "I'm thankful for all of the people out there who really care about me, and that I'm stable and healthy no matter what problems life throws at me."
Which I think is the difference between now and then: a lot more problems. There's been a lot of... I don't even know what that has occurred since last year. But I don't think that's necessarily a bad thing. I'm going through an awkward growing phase in my life, where I cry too much but every week is still an ADVENTURE.
And I'm beginning to admit it to myself: I'm probably romantically in love with someone who doesn't quite love me back in the same way. And as tragical as that sounds, the way things are right now, it's... actually not so bad. I'm not being unrealistic and I'm not acting on my possessive impulses... in general, I think I've been dealing with things well. And he definitely loves me, even if he's not in love with me. At the very least, if this sort of experience doesn't help a person grow, then I don't know what will. :)
So here's to future dilemnas and growing and whatever else happens! Happy Thanksgiving, everyone!
