Why is life so hard. I wish I wasn't so insecure. :(

Though on a much brighter note, I turned in my off-campus study proposal today. Even though I'm somewhat apprehensive about leaving for a whole year, I feel like I *need* to do this. I feel like I'm at a stalemate, both with my friends as well as my classes. I want to grow while I'm away. I want for Senior year to be better, and I think the only way that will happen is if I'm the one who changes.