I WAS TRANSCRIBING A RECENT CONVO FROM MEMORY BUT ECCENTRIC NYER SAW IT AND HE WAS PRESENT DURING THAT PARTICULAR CONVERSATION. SO NOW I THINK HE KNOWS THAT I WRITE ABOUT PEOPLE AT KENYON ONLINE!!!! AND ONE OF THE NEW NICKNAMES I THOUGHT UP FOR SOMEONE WAS FLAMBOYANTLY GAY GUY AND I WAS LIKE OHSHIT BECAUSE HE KNOWS THE GUY I WAS REFERRING TO & MIGHT BE OFFENDED SINCE HE'S GAY HIMSELF. :O~~
So I guess I should be a liiiittle more careful. Though at least this isn't as bad as getting caught writing BL smut or something. Haha.
So in other news. Korea Girl, who I haven't mentioned here in a while but she was in the summer program for those of you who might've forgotten, has been invading on my turf with DHB. Well okay, not really, they've only talked a couple times, BUT DAMN IT I DON'T FUCKING LIKE HER. Which is something I only realized a few weeks ago after much self-questioning, because Korea Girl is one of those types who is a prude to a fault and is overly-sensitive and doesn't have much of a sense of humor on a lot of things, and worst of all, she never does anything to help herself and would rather play the whole "oh pity me my life is so tragical" victim act all the time.
....And all of this I have told to DHB multiple times. But he doesn't have any reason to dislike her since he doesn't really know her, so he's been talking to her a little more recently, and ONE OF THOSE TIMES THEY WERE TALKING FOR A GOOD TWENTY MINUTES WITH ME SITTING THERE TRYING TO READ AND BLOCK OUT THE NOISES OF THEIR CONVERSATION SINCE I DIDN'T WANT TO TALK TO HER. And mind you, I'm not angry at DHB for this... I'm actually not sure WHO I'm upset at.
I have this paranoid fear that Korea Girl is jealous of my friendship with DHB, since from what I can tell, she has yet to form any really close friendships with anyone... and she sees DHB & I together all the time and DHB and her actually got along real well the couple times they've talked, and I'm scared that she might try to "steal" him from me now that she knows how nice and funny and awesome he is. I AM SO PETTY THAT IT IS RIDICULOUS. And I know that I'm being really delusional right now, but that's how I feel. And I know that it's my own fault that I got ignored for half an hour while they talked since I'm the one who decided not to participate in their conversation, but I still feel stupidly bitter about it. Goddamnit. :(
I like this boy way too much to even function sometimes, I think. I just feel so... dumb right now, so incredibly petty and jealous and just eww. I never realized how much different it is to have a crush on someone who you're BFFs with and spend all your time with as opposed to someone you only occasionally see in class or whatever. I haven't seen my mother in two months and I'm okay with it, but I go ONE DAY without talking to DHB and I miss him. Serious wtf.
On a lighter note, things are generally going very well and I love all of my friends so hardcore. <3
Though to go back to DHB for a second... is it a good thing that he feels comfortable enough around me to make the occasional "let's have sex" joke? Maybe I'm just a prude and I know that guys just looooove making fun of me b/c of how moe my reactions sometimes are (DHB especially, to be honest), but seriously.
