Went to my first big college party (well, big by Kenyon's standards, haha) since Halloween. It's Shock Your Mama, since the point is to dress in something that would shock your mother (which typically means something at least mildly slutty, haha). I won't post the pic here because it's embarrassing, but if you want to see what I spontaneously decided to wear, click here. (I'm the one with the scarf.) The pics were taken using flash, MY MORTAL ENEMY, and this was the only pic where I didn't look ridiculously chinky. And you can't see it terribly well, but DHB stuffed his pants LOL.
There has actually been quite a bit of self-inflicted and non-self-inflicted drama in my life as of late, some of which presented itself last night. One of them being that it's pretty much set in stone that DHB will be rooming with a group of friends separate from our main group of friends (generally, DHB, NicoNico, and I, and sometimes Eccentric NYer but he's been a little unhinged lately). And one of them is a girl who he's friends with, but who I'm not. (And honestly, sometimes I feel like this girl ignores me outright... but maybe I subconsciously give off a cold vibe to her since I immediately felt weird around her for various reasons the first time DHB & I hung out with her.) And I feel dumb that it bothers me so much, but I have this deathly, irrational fear of being replaced (esp. if it's DHB who's doing the replacing)... and knowing that the two of us will be so apart next year, living with different people probably in different dorm buildings, really doesn't help.
That, and the fact that my old roommie and I were thinking of doing themed housing, which would mean that the two of us plus some friends (including DHB) would have all lived with each other in a small house on campus. Which would have been a dream, but it fell through, and now DHB DOES have a group-living situation, but it's with another set of people. :(
Ah well. I've resigned myself to not worrying about it at least until this school year ends and to enjoy my current situation, even if it's temporary.
And my workload this week has been insane. For the first time, I honestly think I might not be able to read one of the books due for my history class this week. :(
