I have another site. ._. Jeebus. I'm like the friggin' queen of tons of sites. I dun care though. This username is laaaaammeeee. Lame, lame, lame! So, I hath made another one that's called Fundies HOORAH. So if you're not fed up with me and all that junk, I'm a movin' on over there. YAY!!!...
Love ya's! Bye bye!
xoxo,
Britty
According to Nate I'm overreacting about this whole thing. 'Cause it's only for the summer, and then I'll be with him again.
I find that hilarious!
Usually when someone loves another person which he said he did, they don't go and pull some stupid stunt like this.
He honestly believes that I'm okay with all this. That once we're back in school I'll be willing to date him again. Then what? What happens over the summer? He gonna dump me again because he can't handle not being able to see me?!
No. I'm not going to do this crap again. I'm sick of people pulling shenanigans such as these on me all the time.
I know he's probably going to fool around with some girl while we're not together, and then he'll expect me to take him back. HA! Funny.
He's going to a fucking party. Shows how much he's hurting. Then again he's not even hurting. He doesn't give a damn! He never has!
I wish I could act so cold and heartless, but I simply can't. I don't get over people quickly. I'm lonely half the time, and when someone happens to come along I get attached. Which I NEED to stop doing. It's doing me no good. No good whatsoever.
I find it even more pathetic that I happen to be crying over this.
I just want someone to hold me and tell me that everything is going to be okay. But, that's not going to happen. I have no one now. Absolutely no one.
I have no friends offline. My mom is always sleeping. My grandparents nag me all the time. My father is non-existent. I'm alone! ALONE, ALONE, ALONE!!
Always alone! Why am I always alone?!
Cryingcryingcryingcrying.
I know I have you guys, but the thing is.. I need someone here. I need someone who I can talk to face to face. I need someone who I can hear. I need someone who I can see.
Now I'm just getting selfish and greedy.
I have no reason to live anymore. Never did, and probably never will. I'm so afraid of death though, and I don't want to leave my mom behind or my pets. But it seems like it's the only thing to do.
I could get away with killing myself so easily. My mom is sleeping all the time. I could easily take all her pills and mine, and kibby on the floor and she wouldn't even notice. Every suicidal teens dream, right?
I CAN'T STOP CRYING! I don't want to cry anymore! I just want it all to go away. I want it all gone. Right now. I wish I had magic and then I could make this all go away.
I don't want people to remember me as being a miserable, suicidal, antisocial lunatic. I don't think anyone would remember me anyway. No one even sees me. The thing is though.. I want to be remembered for good things. But I haven't done anything good. Not one thing. I don't even have one good quality to be remembered by.
People seem to think that I always want to be depressed or miserable and the truth is I don't. I mean, who in their right mind would? The truth is, I try very hard to be happy. I try so very, very hard.
Life's one big fucking party!
AT LEAST NOW I CAN CUT! I CAN FUCKING CUT 'CAUSE I ALREADY LOST HIM! I CAN OVERDOSE TOO! I'M GONNA HAVE A PARTY!
Well, Nate broke up with me. He said he doesn't like having to deal with not being able to see me that much. He said he'll go out with me again once we're back in school. But he said that it's kinda like we're broken up, but not. I could see him tomorrow, but he has a party. So he'd rather go to that. :] Total bullshit. Whatever. I told him to fucking forget about me. He didn't even have the guts to do it over the phone. He did it on the net. I'm done with relationships. I'm done with love, and most of all I'm done with life.
*Grumbles* I had posted, but it didn't post because I forgot the title. *Bawls my eyes out* It took me about ten minutes to realize that. >_> Soooo.... here I go again!
I got taggeded by zulotoshi. I don't know how many facts I was supposed to give, but he gave 8 so I guess I'll give 8 too.
1. I act ditzy, but sometimes I wonder if it's just an act. >_>
2. I love shoes. ♥
3. My favorite ice cream is black raspberry.
4. I'm really shy.
5. I forget things a lot. ._.
6. I always know someone's name and remember them, even if they don't remember me.
7. I DESPISE drugs of any kind. (ie: alcohol, cigarettes, pot, etc.)
8. I say "like" a lot.
There, 8 facts about me. Woo!
Now I tag:
Spiffy
Kaisa
Scooter
And, just those three. 'Cause the other people he tagged happen to be my friends as well, and I ain't got many friends on here. >_>
I'm currently craving pancakes right now. With strawberries on top. *DROOLS* OHEMGEEE!!!!! >_>
Okay, I'm gonna go before I start salivating all over the place.
xoxo,
Britty
