Well he didn't break up with me. In fact he wasn't the one who changed his myspace. He wasn't on at all. Or so he says. I told him I didn't know if I could believe him. I was just so hurt from yesterday even though nothing happened. I was in my hurt mode, and I told him that. Now he's being a real jerk. He won't tell me he loves me, he was supposed to call me last night and he didn't. I had the phone near my head the whole night hoping he'd call, and he didn't. So, around like eleven I started crying. I was going to kill myself. Literally. I was going to down every pill in sight, because my mom has so many. But then I got on AIM, and I started talking to one of my friends, and he helped me. Thing is, Nate doesn't give a shit. So, I'm either going to be dead before the summer's over, or in the hospital. I just can't handle this. He's hurting me so bad, and he doesn't even care. I don't know, if he won't talk to me on the phone at some point today, then I guess it's over. I want to talk to him over the phone about what's going on. Though he's never friggin' home. He's always at the club. *Sigh* I really didn't know he could be this cold hearted. I didn't think it was in him.