I miss shane...Idk, ive been having more and more dreams lately about him. But theres one that keeps reaccuring..Theres pure darkness all around me and than i see shane; He comes up to me and embracing me in his arms and than i hear out of no where our song (gardian angel by red jumpsuit apparatus) and we begin slow dancing. He looks into my eyes and tells me he loves me and that he misses me...I look back into his eyes and begin crying telling him I miss him too and i just want him to come back home...
God..I'm crying now just thinking about it. Ive been feeling more lonely everyday..It feeling like my heart is breaking, and to tell you the truth..im happy im feeling this way because its the only i know im still alive..atleast alittle bit. But heres the poem i wrote for him =[

Words cannot describe,
My love for you,
I ache to feel your touch,
and see your smile too.
I miss you dearly,
I cry in the night,
Hoping someday,
to again see your light.
My heart aches,
worried for you I am,
I just want you,
To came back home again.