I'm sorry for doing this I really am but I need to let off some steam...things have been a little stressful here lately and I finally see why.
Venting starts here: If you don't want to hear/read it feel free to stop here.
So things have been tense here for a while now and I had no clue why. I felt left in the dark and felt responsible for it. I don't know why but I did. I always do that. Even when I know I had nothing to do with it I still always feel like is my fault. I finally know its not.
Let me start from the beginning. Back when I was still in NC even. Before I was married to my lovely husband. We were just teens dating at this time. Apparently back then my now mother in law decided she didn't like me. Which there are a few points I can understand or at least wave. One: back then I was Pagan. Ok sure I can see how that could be troubling to someone. People fear and dislike what they do not understand. Ok whatever, I'm cool with that. Two: I still dressed in the emo/goth style. That includes dyed hair hanging in my face. Ok sure, not very socially acceptable but its not bad either right? What's wrong with deep purple hair?
Now let's fast forward to now. Three: I'm not a dog person. Which honestly, I'm not. If I had the chance to go out and get a new pet a dog wouldn't be my first choice. But does that make me a bad person? Growing up I had cats indoors. I couldn't go outside with the dogs because I got sick all the time. I had a very bad immune system. So naturally I bonded with the only animal I was around. Cats. I don't hate dogs, I just prefer cats. Easier keep, not messy, not smelly, clean, functional, and independent.
Four: I don't clean the house in the same OCD way she does. -sighs- Does it really matter how the house is cleaned if you reach the same goal? If its clean does it matter how it got that way? Apparently it does. -_-
Five: Recently I found out shes been trying to break my husband and I up. Apparently while we were PLANNING OUR FRIGGIN WEDDING she told my husband that she wished he would have got together with the girl from their church. She could keep house right, cook better, and she likes dogs....-sighs- now shes taken to hiding things that I use on a daily basis.
Like the lighter for instance, no I don't smoke I use it to light my oil burner. I find that cleaning chemicals are to harsh. The smell they leave behind irritates the senses. So to fix this I burn oil extracts to clear the air and make the house smell nice. What does she do? Hides the lighter from me and sticks it in her bookshelf behind a bunch of books -_-
I get being worried about a li flame in a house with dogs. God knows, its just like having small children...but come on. I'm responsible about it. I stay in the room when its lit, I keep the dogs away from it, I move it when I'm done using it. What's the problem? Seriously? I do nothing but be nice to this woman and this is how I'm treated. That sad thing is shes been more of a mother to me then my own and she doesn't even like me. -sighs again- I'm getting rather irritated with her...I haven't said anything until now because I don't want to start anything. I love my husband and I'm staying here. She's just going to have to get over this petty shit and get over it.
