Hi, Its Bloody.
Yes I realized I basically abandoned you guys 
Im so sorry, And yes Im still drawing just not posting it on here... -w-'
Can anyone spell SLACKER?
Yes thats this lil girl.
So instead Im gonna try to post some of my writing!~
Yes you may see my photos scattered on your shelves in Wal-mart.. -w-'
My dearest Sister Kelsie is making a book which i happen to be photo'd in the cover of... It was during our Alice In Wonderland Photo Shoot.
I also need to take a shower, Which will happen after my darling mamaw goes to work.
What have you guys been doing? Any good news or bad??
ALSO AUGUST 6th IS MY 15th BIRTHDAY. Thats not counting this month 4 months away...
AND I have 56 or so dollars to go to Alabama... -w-' And My arms are tan because I mowed grass for an hour at least.. for ten dollars.. EEEK.
I MISS YOU ALL.
ADD ME TO MSN IF YOU HAVE IT OR FACEBOOK.
MSN:
[email protected]
DO IT NOW.
Byeee I love you all.
I cant find this remedy;
By: Amber Renea
What happened to this fear?
Why am I still here?
Is it really worth it all,
I just wanna throw it all away.
Take all this pain away, I cant bare to find this remedy.
What happened to your god?
The man you looked up to so much,
Oh, Oh, Oh, Oh.
Just take this pain away, I cant bare to find this remedy.
What happened here?
What happened to those flames,
They all died out along with the fire to live.
When friends turn enemies, The fire of hate is ignited.
Take it all away, I cant stand to find this cure.
Where’s the fires of your heart gone?
To rest in peace with all your body- All your body.
Can anyone hear me?
Am I screaming into deaf ears?
The deafening silence burns across my heart.
Burns across my heart.
What happened here?
I’d live for you, I live you. I live for this god I know.
I die for those who burn in my heart.
I cant bare this pain anymore.
Take this pain away, I can’t bare to find the Remedy.
I cant find this Remedy.
Remedy, Remedy, Remedy.
I just want to run, So far away. I cant bare to find this remedy.
No, No. No, No.
I wish I could pack my bags and move somewhere else, Where the fire still burns in my heart.
I can’t find this Remedy.
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Song about my sister, And I. No its more about our troubles right now. Haha. I love you Kelsie Eileen. Dont you ever forget that! No matter if i get mad at you or anyone tells you otherwise. I LOVE YOU just like I love CJ, You're my best friend next to CJ, YOU are amazing and I love you as a sister. You never forget that babe!
My Flaws:
Yes these are my flaws and fears, I’m writing this for CJ and others to know.. I will be completely honest in this as well..
1. I have a extreme fear of dying though sometimes wish my death.
2. I’m sadistic at times to others, Sadly.
3. I have a fear of getting fat because my family has teased me about getting fat so much, I cut back eating, Got skinny and still am. I’m sort of Fearful of gaining weight but fine with loosing..
4. I hate the way I look, I think I look ugly and constantly claw at face thinking I need to be better looking.
5. I am what you could call Chronic Impulse cutter.
6. I have this twisted mind that makes up almost every excuse I can think of that can be reasonable.
7. I have a fear of people dying or killing their selves, I have had fears of loosing people for a long time.
8. I have this feeling I have to be there for someone, To show them they have someone that understands..
9. I have this strange feeling that I was meant to stay on Earth to care about the misfits of society.
10. I’m a liar in all senses, I tell a tall-tale once in a while but mostly stories are true.
11. I probably have lied to you or even someone you know.
12. I have problems with people touching my hair, That’s my hair, You threaten to cut it off and I’ll cut some stuff off you.
13. I’m sensitive to the sun and cold, Yes that’s a flaw because most love Sun and the cold. I don’t do well in either situation. I’m happy being indoors.
14. I swoon over peoples hair and wish I had some of their hair not my own, Auburn mess.
15. I have tried suicide but I’m not overly depressed.
16. I push my limits to see how far I can go till I actually get put in the Crazy house.
17. I love CJ almost to points where I’m naïve tendencies and rebelling against what others think. That’s a flaw within a flaw. I was taught to trust none, I trust many now. I’m vulnerable within the world. Yes I’m a naïve and irresponsible girl.
18. I grew in a house that many would call unstable possibly. My parents fought and got in tuffles where my brother and I would fight back my dad from my mom. I’m not afraid to say yes I have hit and kicked my father away from my mother. Yes I’ve almost been hit because of it. Am I ashamed of this, Yes.
19. I’m always worked up hearing a story of someone getting abused. I do not believe in abuse.. No. Its just not right, But there is limits.
20. I’m an outsider and damn proud of it, I am a little off but lovable, Yes I accept many unless you come off as a horrible person. And yes I often find myself accepting those who also come off as horrible.
21. I read too many books that I can relate to either from Dark tendencies or romance or even a life story. I connected to some of the characters in the Outsiders book, Dallas Winston for instance.
22. I would give my life for CJ. Or anyone that mattered to me for that matter.
23. I have a thing for southern accents, Yes I adore them even if they sound like a really bad fake accent. Yes sir, I love them southern accents, Thanks to CJ (Since he has a slight accent that makes me blush) and Ellis…
24. I try to impress my friends but not like insanely.
25. I dream of having a different last name that my boyfriend carries, Yes that means I want to be married to him. Yes that means I want a family with him.. Don’t get me wrong..
In short words:
I have believed there was a purpose for every human being on the world. I believe there’s a invisible intertwined strings to your soul mate. And I do believe I might have found mine. I know its all teenage hormones you try to pin on everyone but yes my hormones are raging but not that bad, I’ve cooled down and I rather say I know where I belong..
There’s a secret calling much unlike the others;
Perhaps not as challenging or as hard,
But there’s a calling unlike any other one in my formal time,
A time where none may speak nor none will.
it’s the calling they shall not understand many of times,
We speak,
We cry,
We often fall upon our knees…
Speaking of many times we never cried,
We never were strong enough to live without crying,
But we have stories from when we never did.
Heres my email and Facebook, Please add them to contacting me.. c:
I do enjoy and accept anything really. c:
Email: [email protected]
Facebook: http://www.facebook.com/permalink.php?story_fbid=210373635643206&id=100000117138712#!/profile.php?id=100000117138712
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Bloody commands thee!
