My lifes been hectic! I'm just gonna give up so hardcore.. lol.
Well in the next couple of weeks I'm going to be rather depressed.
November 9th is the day my grandma died then November 17th is the day my ex Tristian died... I'm not willing to do this...
My boyfriend is taking me to see Tristian's grave site the 17th.. So I can sit there and cry and finally say goodbye after a year.. He's trying so hard to be a good sport about my emotions lately.. He's trying so hard lol..
I miss Tristian and I miss my Mamaw like crazy.. 3 years for mamaw and a year for Tristian.. It's crazy.. and its already passed a year for my cousin Jeanetta..
I just don't know how so many people can leave me behind..
I'm sorry if my depression rubs off on you guys, I don't mean for it to and I've been trying really hard to keep it bottled but it's hitting me rather hard now..
I'm glad Ryan( my boyfriend) is tolerating my mean ass..
I went off on him yesterday and today.. and he hadn't even done anything to set me off... >w>;
I feel bad..

Anyways, I have to get off here to go and draw my poem for English out and I literally mean draw it out.. It's a sensory poem that you don't understand unless theres something to explain it.. <w<
I'll post it eventually!~

I love you guys!~
Behave~

Love,

~ Bloody