well random title.
but I've been thinking about death.
I thought of when I was young...
first with my brother Matthew...
he got his door opened because he hadn't shut it good rolled out of my mum's jeep.he almost got hit by a truck....
I had a bad cough when I was 6 I had to have a inhaler...when I got it I look like i was dieing in my mum's arms!she cried on my head that day...she said"sis sis!Amber!Amber!speak to me!" I had her scared...
then again
when I was at a water park....I was looking for my grandpa and brother in deep water...at this time I wasn't thinking about how to swim...I forget lots of times...and I went to far and I almost drowned till these girls saw me and put me back where I could touch the bottom of the pool and there was a life gaurd there but they're too stupid to save someone....
then its near here I almost died....ahhh the wonders of death surprise me...
Okay.
near my mum and dad's break up my dad replacing me and my brother and my mum's new step children and her boyfriend and her home and her job and everything dealing with family.
I was put under too much stress and depression and my crazy head that I started cutting and almost sucssesed at commiting sucide...
I stopped though because I rethought it all and...I found I still had things to live for.
well I guess that was random but still.....I thought of all that again.....I almost wanted to scream I was insane.....
well for today....:
I got back from Kelsie's at 2.
took a shower after I got home.
talked to my buddehs
made stuff
thought over life and how happy I am I'm still alive since *points to sucide thingy*yeaaaah
I met lots of nice friends new words new emotions and made new bonds.
without all that I don't think I'd have life...
I met my best friends who I can tell the world to.they can understand it all.
I met a guy with the same number of siblins i basically have.
well thats all.
really....
Amber Renea
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