Hey guys^^
I wanted to post this yesterday but other things got in the way..As December has approached, I can't believe that the time has gone so fast. It still feels like yesterday when they were talking about the doomsday on the 22nd of December and now looks at us! Not only did we survive that day, we have managed to survive a full year from that day and now we're approaching 2014!
Its pretty amazing to me that time has flown so fast and I'll turn 20!!! Thats a big figure for me and I'll also begin my new life :) Its amazing, no matter what happens life goes on!
Wow, this year has been really adventerous. Firstly, I turned 19 and realised many new things with this age. This was an age where my family didn't know what to think of me. They talked about marriage and adult responsibilties but at the same time they became more protective and conscious of me. I discovered alot of changes in me too. I have learnt to compromise, to keep quiet, to let the silence resolve the situation and to let go and to smile no matter what!
Secondly, a few days after my birthday I joined TheO! Its was amazing when I joined. Mostly, I discovered people who were as much passionate about anime and art as me. They liked my worked and valued my being here. I made new friends and with them discovered a new world where there was no racism, no gender discrimination and where poeple accepted each other for who they were, not on the basis of their country or religion. And its been 10 months now and I'm just addicted to here, to you guys :)
Then in April I recognised a true yandere! It was pretty stressful. I had to leave tuition because of that..I won't go into details here but what I can say is that it was a new experience and I learnt not to trust jsut anyone that I met.
After that I had exams and those were good. Better than last year atleast and I cheated ALOT! But with them I finished High school. And looking back on High School I can say that I don't want to get back there, lol. I lost a few friends with High school too but I'll say that I won't miss them...
Then I had a few easy months. There was Ramadhan and I prayed alot, more then I have in my entire life. But immmediately after Ramadhan, I lost sight of my religion and that was totally new for me. I don't know, I follow my religion reluctantly now a days. I only pray to show my parents that I do pray but except for that I have totally given up on it. I don't when or how will I get back. Its quite sad for me that I have given it up and I don't know how to get back.
In October my mom had a major surgery and I took on all responsibilities at home. I learnt to cook and pretty much handle all household affairs and realised the fact that this is what my life is going to be after, maybe 4 to 5 years later and I had to deal with the fact that I'll have to kill all my interests to take on a family and care for them because taking on a house id really a very big job! I hope I'll love my family so much that I'll be happy to do these things for them, lol!
Then I got into college. I want to go there but I wanted to go to another university too. I came in 4th in the entry test of that university but I didn't go because I had paid for my college. I got depressed from that and nobody helped me except for you guys, or one particular person here. I so grateful to you! Now, I really want to go there, I'm looking forward to it^^
Then, only a few days ago I went through a total episode and again you guys stepped up to help me! And that made me realise who my true friends are. And that also made my learn that I musn't ever talk about things to my family, no matter what!
And now its December! And I'm making the best of it because its the last month of my freedom! And I'm writing all this now because I know I won't have time later preparing for college and all^^
So, thats it! tc all...
Loves,
Hifsa!
