Hey guys^^
As refering (wrong spelling, I guess) to my title, thinking alot is entirely too bad for me! I think that I'll do this and that here and there and thats it, I only think that and never get around to doing that!! I may be the loserest person on the planet this moment. Sometimes it doesn't work out the way I want it to and other times it doesn't work out at all. So, here we go, more de-motivation! And this refers to everything/anything I do! Sometimes I want to write everything thing here aand I think about what I'll write here but when I sit with the moniter and keyboard in front of me, I'm usually lost for words. It makes wallpaper, sometimes pretty good ones, but at times thay turn out so trashy that I feel like breaking the screen down, lol. And drawing, don't even ask me about it! I think my drawing instincts have gone to a long sleep! Same goes for writing! I used to write so much. I don't know where I've gone...
So, in short I can't wait to go to college! But see that's the thing! When I'll start going to college I'll be yearning for holidays. So that makes me wonder what happiness is for me....
I wish I could have studied psychology. lol. Then I'd know whats wrong with me :P
The decisions I took a while back have really crushed me. Things are better with my family but after that day I kicked all the intimacy with them out of the door. I wonder when I'll be able to live with that. Because I still can't. They ruined things with me that day. It was high time for them to understand me and when they didn't, it just broke my heart into a thousand pieces. And even though I'm trying to heal it, its really difficult sometimes.
OK, enough with the silly banter. lol...I wanted to thank you guys for all the hugs!! *Big, big hugs back* guys!! I'll try to post up some hugs too :)
Lol, I just feel so guilty for ranting
