Hey Guys,

As in the title, I feel really, really frustrated, restless and uncomfortable. College is too stupid. I keep having issues with my freakin' van, the teachers keep bailing on us and even though it's been a month here, I still feel like I joined here yesterday...But, I'll never stop feeling that, so I might as well come on terns with that.

But, what's really bothering me is my cousin. She is 4 years older than me and lives in Canada. When she was little she was overly attached to my Dad, and still she tells him everything. She came here in 2011 and because I don't have a sister I became really close to her, to the point that I told her all my fears and problems and at that time she gave me a good support and consoled me. After going back, she stopped all contact, even though I tried really hard to keep in touch, she was either busy or uninterested, so I stopped to pursue her after a while.
Now, after nearly 3 years of no contact she wants to come back. And, the reason for that is because she's really disturbed. She messaged her whole situation to my Dad on facebook and he told us and I was REALLY astonished about the fact that she is feeling exactly the same way I keep feeling. The same depression, the same emptiness, the whole deal. You guys know about it, if you've responded to my posts and PMs...And, that's just fucking insane that what I haven't been able to say to my Dad in two years, she tells him in a mere message, and my Dad feels for her!! I feel so useless, all of a sudden! If I say any of what she has written in that message, my Dad would either laugh or thrash me, but he was literally worried for her! That's just bullshit!

Ugh, the freakin' injustice!!! :(