yay, hay all. i just want to type this and get it off my chest. most of you found out sant wsant real around like age 7-8-9. Me i found out at age 13 on easter. i learned it when my parents bought me a couple crappy CDs they picked out at first glance from the cracker barrel. Growing up on santa clause and stuff and the learning he wasnt real kinda gave me alittle lack of trsut in my parents that is still there. when christmas time comes around i started get alittle sad about my parents who i trusted lying to me. I just saw polar express and well it hit me hard with those memories of when i would go to grandmas house(now empty and for sale) and xchanging gifts for on Xmas. soon I started getting less and less gifts while my baby cousins(6 at the time) started gettin buried in gifts. one christmas i only got 2 gifts from my mom and dad and grand parents. i was hurt not cause i didnt get cool stuff but because i getting gifts made me feel loved.

ya pretty much i got christmus issius. T_T just thinking of the word christmas makes me feel bad.