when schools get up and going, strange things can happen. I have doughts that some friendships will last. Its hard to say whos youre friend and who isnt. i have a girl in my tec math class that from the first day of school i said "hi and good morning" to her like how i was raised to do. ya know, just trying to make some friends. The next week she was saying stuff with that real preppy in the nose tone of hers. "OMG SHUT THE FUCK UP". I looked over and asked. "WHATS YOURE PROBLEM!?", her response was, "youre annoying". im so FUCKEN TIRED OF THOSE TO HATE FILLED WORDS!!! Is it because my autism is making me annoying? would i be annoying if i wasnt autistic. it sets a man to thinking. One time a girl said i was annoying and i told her. "well sorry, im autistic." her reply was. "dont give me an excuse". i was speechless. I want people to know that being myself can be annoying but you cant hate me for that!!! its hard for me to know sarcasm. its hard to know when im being annoying or getting on peoples nerves. most recently i try to say high to a friend and ask them how there day was just to get strangled by a 6 foot friends of there. You try to be a nice guy, say hi, ask them how they are and ya get strangled. I give all the time. ask people how they are and be the kinest guy i can be and all i get is shit in return like im annoying or weird or something. Thats when i just want to bend over and say kiss it!!! im me and i wont change for any one. If i loose friends or cant make new ones then its there loss. high school is hell and right now im feeling the burn.

sorry for those who had to sit thru my bitching. i just needed some venting. Ya, know i suprise myself that i havent gone thru a depression yet.