God, im losing it

Im losing it ou guys! i can't make a poem anymore! before the words used to flow, and now, i have to work at it for a good two couplet. god, im losing the only thing im good at! Look i made this one, but it SUCKS~!@

The days are getting longer,
And my pain seems to be getting stronger,
And even if Im trying to be strong,
Most of my friends have figured out something is wrong,
I fight back the tears when they mention your name,
I try to keep my voice steady and take it like a game,
I act like a bitch, like i straight up dont care,
But if you look long enough,
You can tell there is something still there,
Back in the day pride was all needed to let you go
I would act hard, try to put on a show,
Yet no matter how hard i try,
Now it just doesn't work,
Because when it comes down to it,
Me without you leaves me hurt,
I've tried to get things straight,
And put you aside even behind a new man i've tried to hide
I gave up hope but it hasn't given up on me
That's why this unspeakable pain Wont.Set.Me.Free

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