When I first started high school I made lots of friends and people I though liked me. But I lost quite a few of them only to find out all the nasty things they said about me behind my back, or find out they where only tolerating me. like the one person who showed me this website. I thought we would be friends for a while. Then one day she just stopped talking to me. Would not even look at me at school. I had to push it to the back of my mind so I would not hurt anymore. I wish I knwe what I did. when a Graduated I have only 6 people who have stayed by me through it all. Dunno if you guys heard what happened in bend Oregon at the high school, but the guy who killed himself was a close friend of mine. So that would have been 7 people but he is gone. Sorry For the rant but I have been feeling down lately. Wishing I could still have the other friends who didn't realize how much I loved them.