Obnoxiously long post below
G'mornin' goise.
My friend referred me to an internship the other day because he thought I'd be interested. I definitely was, but when I called I was soooo nervous. I started wording really simple things in stupid ways -____-. Hate being nervous. It builds on itself and I dig myself into a deep trench until I'm completely anxious over nothing.
Later on I was asked, "How would you feel about moving?" How many times have I heard that? I actually believe it this time. And I won't fight it because there doesn't seem to be any other way, because my Gramma's really having trouble handling all that's on her shoulders. She's made a lot of sacrifices and isn't feeling well lately, like she's depressed. So, I won't be that asshole that's making it harder.
wow this post is a mood killer.
But my mom only asked me that one question, so she probably didn't intend for me think of all that. How couldn't I though? I'm always the link between everyone that people seem to trust with information 'n crap.
Anyway, my mom apologized to me 'cause she doesn't want me to feel pressured (when she realized I probably did know all of that?)
Seriously though, I just don't wanna move during my senior year. I've got more AP classes to worry about complaincomplaincomplain on't even have a frillin lunch period everyday for the first semester whinewhinewhine.
Basically, I'm easily distracted and suck at focusing. For three years I've had other wonderful crap pulling me in other directions on top of my usual laziness and procrastination.
THEN THEY STARTED BADGERING ME ABOUT THE CALL FOR THE INTERNSHIP.
kills me.
I hate talking about any of my emotions, especially anything bad around my Gramma. And eventually they were asking about my confidence levellll and if I had any at all in myself. Well, sometimes I don't. Sue me :P But I said I just don't wanna talk about.
Then mom asks me what'll make me feel better?
I tell them some damn ice cream.
Because it really would.
So my Grandmama takes meh to Baskin Robbins and we stock up on the goods<3
*is having iceycreams for breakfast*
So then. How're you guys?? :]
