Hi! My name is K.D., although most online know me as misachan83. I'm 32, and am an author and anime lover. Welcome to the shadows of my creative and sometimes odd mind

Seriously?!

Okay, so this is venting and telling something that's real and I guess a bit personal. Please don't be judgmental about it, because it is an illness, and trust me, I've got a lot of judgment on me already for it

So yeah, I just had someone tell me via Facebook whom I consider my friend that even though you're feeling down, that's 100% your fault because you choose how you feel. Seriously, that really hurt. I suffer from Bipolar and she knows it, and I work so hard to fight it and be happy, but I can't always fight my depressive states. It really sucks when someone comes up with that, or tells me to just get over it because I'm looking for attention. That's why I don't open up anymore to most people, which can be really bad. Is it really wrong to be like that with an illness? I'm beginning to question that one, even though I probably shouldn't.

Anyway, thanks for reading and letting me vent. It does make me feel a little bit better to just let it out.

Update on Life

Well, I just wanted to give a little update on me, if anyone's interested (I mean that in the nicest way, considering I'm stupid when it comes to attracting attention but still like when others listen ). Anyway, I'm doing a little bit better now, although still not completely right yet. I'm going to try and get back to drawing and making some wallpapers, and I've been working on my writing again today. Thank you all for listening though. I really appreciate that and knowing that there are others who care about me *big hugs*

Letting some feelings out

So I had to post this just to get something off of my chest, even if I can’t explain the entire situation. Actually, I’m not even that sure if anyone would get it if I did. But I just want to talk a little bit about my feelings from it. Hopefully it will help me to feel a little more at ease. So if anyone chooses to read this, thank you for at least listening to me.

Anyway, the other night I had a really bad experience, and I’m still pretty shook up about it. I’ve been feeling pretty alone since it happened, and it’s made me think back to a few not so good things that have happened with some of those who I thought were my closest friends throughout the years. To be honest about it, I had one best friend in particular for over fifteen years, but she suddenly left me and all of our friends without saying anything except telling us in a not so nice way to go away. We still don’t know why, but it’s always bothered me because I was so close to her. I guess this experience brought a lot of that back to me, even though it’s been a while.

I will say that the experience was something unpleasant with someone who’s made me feel a bit paranoid too. I know they won’t hurt me or anything, at least not physically, but mentally I don’t know. But seriously, if anyone reads this, thanks for taking the time to listen to me let this out a little.

Yay :)

So my husband got me a pretty awesome anniversary gift. I was really surprised, but I definitely love it. He knows just what to get me Anyway, was so excited that I had to share. I've actually got a Ciel purse! Too cool! Just sharing my little excitement for the day

So Thankful

Just wanted to say a quick thank you to all who wished me a happy birthday and sent me little gifts. I was so surprised and happy. I love the wall that Judai was kind enough to dedicate to me as well. My birthday turned out pretty nice too, although I did a whole lot of nothing aside from hanging out with my husband and kids. Couldn't afford much else, but that was okay. It was a nice day, and wonderful to have birthday wishes from such awesome friends! Thank you all! *big hugs*