Welcome to the psychedelic rhapsody of my profile. Where you can join me in a game of chess and whiskey, and just waste your life away, or if that’s not your style why not a game of solitaire with macadamia nuts. Because humans could once fly, so let your dreams become your reality, and get lose of this world controlled by its tiny dots of light. And enter a world were materialistic views have no value, and teddy bears are cuddly to explosive proportions. But if that’s too much for your brain to handle, than try a mushroom and discovery the meaning of life. But hey, we all know that life is but a dream, where our comrades include the four legged and hairy variety, and your future is all that matters, provided your star is still shinning. So throw your money away on a pointless bet.

When the music ends you will wake up?

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Ok we all know I’m one of the most opinionated ……. In the world, lets face it even when it comes to music I may listen to just about anything but even than my taste has its selections, I can’t stand pop music and I always end up throwing on an old fashion vinyl at the end of the day because I’m screaming that I need some substance. And Mai Yamine is one of only a few modern artist that I actually admire but I think I might have actually found a band that I truely love as much as I do her authentic blues. THE COLD WAR KIDS, damn it truly has been forever since I was able to say that I love a bands music. Not only is the lead singers ‘wailing vocal’ what the godforsaken music industry been craving for all this years, but I have heard that they are all multi-talented to the point whereby each member of the band actually plays more than one instrument within the band. Its like a dream come true, a band that fought its way to the top independently, sings with substance and is nothing like I’ve ever heard before, the only thing I’m now scared off is the fact that no matter how good a dream is you all ways wake up. Will this band be able to maintain its independent creation now that they have finally made their own album and are getting world recognition?

Take your morals and stick them

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Anyone who reads Death Note and posts around the forums will have been confronted with the moral discussions of the manga, being asked if they believe what Light is doing is right or would you do if you found a Death Note. Sadly I admit I have participated in these threads many times. But there is something that constantly annoys me about these discussions; I just can’t stand the fact that people constantly simplify the moral issues within the manga. People are constantly trying to distinguish Light as good or evil. When this happens I feel like I’m Donnie Darko in that scene where the teacher is trying to categorize life’s decisions as acts of love or fear and like Donnie I just want to say ‘well you can just stick it up your @#$’
Death Note isn’t a simple case of right and wrong, damn people are always overlooking the in-depth physiological struggles as to whether they can or could justify killing another human. Its instinct versus justice which I know is still a relatively simple way of putting it, but this way you’re looking at a wider view.
When Light kills criminals people can easily accept that as justice but when he begins to kill the FBI agents and people who threaten his freedom. Than he is easily criticized and the standard opinion of him is changed, they begin to further simplify his actions.
What they are forgetting is that Light is protecting himself and his dream of a utopia. It is at this point that Light begins to act on instincts and the story takes an in depth turn and leaves the majority of the readers behind.
Fundamentally we are all animals, as I have argued before. We act according to the situation we are involved in, if we feel that our freedom is being jeopardized we attempt to counteract the threatening actions at any cost. But how we actually act is overall determined by the individual and the situation in which they are involved in.
And don't take this and start screaming that I’m saying killing is ok, because again that would be simplifying the moral issues being discussed. All I’m asking is that people quit according to that pathetic love and fear system and stop trying to simplify the moral issues of the manga series Death Note, and for once in your goddamn lives think about something at an entirely independent level.

I Thought What I Would Do Was I Would Pretend I Was a Deaf Mute

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Ok so we all know that I'm an absolute Salinger fan and the only reason that I ever actually read Catcher in the Rye was because of GITS SAC. But since I grown to absolutely worship Salingers works, and it is so infuriating the way that people seem to only care about that one quote. There is so much more to Catcher in the Rye and GITS SAC, there are many references to Salinger's works not just Catcher in the Rye. Like the poster for a 'Nice Day for Banana fish' in the episode with the directors cyberbrain. And at the end the 'F%#@ You' carved into the railing, and the left handed baseball mit, although that was explained in the series as the result of Tougasa brain being hacked, the boys name Allie, the mit and the writting on the mitt were all references to the novel, there are others. But people are overlooking these references and ultimately mis reading the real messages within Salingers works. People just think that they Aoi is hidding himself from the phonies of the world, but what they are forgetting is that he just doesn't have the strength to fight them. He is ultimately afraid of becoming one of the masses, he dosen't believe he can make a difference so therefore to stop himself from becoming a phonie he disappears, in what he says is potentially like Holdern's quote, but actually he is just following Buddy's style from Seymore - An Introduction.
It's like people are just over looking the Brillance that is Salingers works and I just

I’ve found a new literary idol!

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Just kidding, the wormhole of cynicism that people affectionately refer to as my mind will always belong to Salinger. But recently a friend kept hassling me to read ‘Interview With The Vampire’. At First I was reluctant, I mean I’m not really in the habit of reading horror unless its J-Horror, in that case I love Koji Suzuki, and the ‘Vampire Hunter D’ collection.
At first I must say that I thought my worst assumptions were confirmed, the whole novel had such a Freudian atmosphere, it was infuriating. The Vampires didn’t believe they could love but they were still experiencing the lust and ecstasy from killing. And I was all set to absolutely abandon my friend for forcing me to read this, when I realised that not once in the novel did Rice ever make one of her characters fall in love in a glorified manner. Ok that sounds kind of strange, but when you think about it, the characters believed that they were unable to love fully, and when they did hold affections for somebody they didn’t ever believe it to be something of purity.
Damn I think I have finally found what I’ve been looking for. Don’t get me wrong, Salinger is great at not forcing this whole concept of pure love down your throat, but his characters always carry a certain amount of innocence, which tend to make their love stereotypical.
After realising this I decided to see if this was true to all her books, that and the fact that I think Lestat is so damn cool. And so far I have read three of her books and in each one it has been the same. Yes her characters may fall in love, but they never try to make it out to be pure they always make excuses, and state that it is just infatuation, or the fact that they don’t want to be alone.
I never thought it would be possible for fantasy to mirror reality as much as is the case with Ann Rice’s novels.

Screw Food and Water

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All you need is Sex, Wow that comes across as bold. But what else is new when it comes to my whining. As your probably aware of, this whole new outburst was spurred on by over-exposure to society. I feel like everywhere I go I am surround by discussions and publicity of sexuality. On the radio, the TV, signs, the internet. Yes I have been spending way too much time on forums, where I’m surrounded by sex-starved teenagers again.

A while ago, as anyone who actually reads my blog would remember I wrote about how the concept of love was ruling the world and that people were afraid of living without existing. Well I’ll admit I was totally wrong, or maybe I was just being naïve. Because I have since figured out that like I originally thought love doesn’t exist the whole concept of love is just a mask for sex. Its not that every where you turn there is love constantly being forced down your throat, but sex. The fairy tales that we are told as children are telling us that love is only what gives us a happy ending, but that is only because we are to young to be exposed to societies real intentions, which is moulding our sexual image.

Ok now no one wants to die, but you see it more often than not that the only thing that is worse than death is not being found attractive. Yes people are still vane as all hell, but it isn’t for the apparently pure reasoning of finding love and having someone cry for you. But the thought that you can find anyone you want to share your bed. Its becoming less about attachment and more about satisfaction. Recently I changed radio stations, because of the constant promotion of increasing sex drive, if I wanted to listen to man and women moaning with satisfaction I would switch over to an adult station.

I’m getting sick and tired of this, and as always it’s spilling over into anime’s. It’s getting harder to find an anime with any kind of substance, all they seem to care about is how much fan service can be fitted into a single episode. Why the hell can’t they tone down the level of fan service and up the level of substance, it can be done Cowboy Bebop and GITS SAC are proof of that.

Back to the bold opening statement, the way that people behave raving about their own stratifications, I swear it appears that this is what they are thinking. There is more than enough evidence to support this statement. Eating disorders generally stem from this, when you think about it. People seem to be fed this notion that nutrition doesn’t matter unless you are found attractive, that is why we have these skinny starved looking idols and models covering most major advertisements. That inturn make teens feel inadequate. Society needs to quite feeding and promoting sex, and focusing on letting individuals develop.