still old 
Being an otaku I’m not stranger to the concept of the line between illusion and reality being smeared, but recently it feels like everywhere I go I’m entering a chapter of a book or a scene from a film. What the hell is happening, everyone seems to be losing their sense of identity and are trying to live out popular genres.
I know that not many people are going to agree with me on this but hey what else is new, I wouldn’t be an individual if everyone shared the same opinion as me now would I?
Recently I went to a university open day, I was really excited about the whole experience, being able see an environment that would hold the next few years of my life. As everyone who has read my posts knows I absolutely hated school, and still have an extreme distaste for the education system in particular. When I entered this particular university it was great it was like an environment of rebellion against society, everywhere there were posters, and stand where students were lobbying against particular political, social, and environmental issues. But gradually as I wondered around, I began to feel like I was trapped in a chapter of ‘Catcher in the Rye’. It occurred to me that these people were probably not nearly as vocal about these issues while they were school students, and once having completed their studies they would again decrease their enthusiasm, focusing more on their careers. The more I thought about it the more depressed I became about this, I was just about to enter yet another environment full of phonies.
Don’t get me wrong I’m not saying that all who people show enthusiasm towards political, environmental, and social issues only do this when they are at university. But the majority of people do, they see university as their only chance to be heard, before that they are too young to be noticed and afterwards their career choices need more attention.
This is yet another example of societies rules running the development of the individual and making sure that they live within that well crafted socially acceptable box. I JUST CAN’T STAND IT, STEP OUTSIDE THAT FREAKING BOX AND BE HEARD NO MATTER HOW OLD YOU ARE!!!!!!!!!!!!
This whole blur between reality and illusion seems to be taking even more of a hold on the anime forums lately. Every forum I enter feels like I’m watching a scene from ‘The Trainman’. Users are asking other users for advice on relationships, sharing the details of their relationships with total strangers. This totally ticks me off, not only because of the fact that as we all know I don’t believe in love and think that everyone is just wasting their time in a pathetic socially conditioned instinct to find their soul mate. But the fact that no one seems to ever think of talking the issues out with their partner. ‘Seriously where’s the fun in that, if we talk about it enough on the net maybe we’ll become famous and get a movie deal out of it too’ it feels like this is what they are thinking sometimes.
No one seems to be able to think for themselves. Ok so not that they ever were able too, the masses have always just acted according to what was socially acceptable in order ensure approval. But lately it just feels like its been taken a step further and social acceptability is now determined by a movies popularity or literatures impact on the world.
