Love is a fickle thing in life. Life is a fickle thing to love. Here, I express what my life brings to me throughout my existence. Glimpses in the grey area are unfolding and offering you a cup of my reality. Welcome to my life.
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SOME INFO
I've actually been a member since 1/13/09
Name: Shayde
Age: 29
Birthday: 3/14/91 (March 14th, 1991)
Sex: Male
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So, my dad bought himself a guitar. Finally, another instrument for me to learn on the side. >:3 I'm okay with this, actually. I've been playing drums for over 14 years and they're a lot of fun, but I've lately been coming up with a lot of ideas for songs and arrangements for covers. But, seeing how I'm mainly a percussionist, I've never been able to do that because I've never taught myself how to play any stringed instruments, preferably electric guitar and bass. This is a great opportunity, in my opinion, to broaden my talents and learn something new. Let's do this! >:D I'm actually really excited about the idea. ^^ And don't worry. I'm not going to jack it from him. He did allow me to use it whenever he's not, so thumbs up!
Speaking of my father, I got him a Father's Day present. It's not much, but I cleaned up the house a little, bought him beer since he was out, and wished him a happy Father's Day with a card and some time together. It was enjoyable. ^^
If you see the same fan art pop up over and over again, I apologize for that. My computer is being super derpy at the moment with submissions. But yeah, I'm finally back into drawing! I even made a new OC unintentionally. xD;; His name is Alter, but I haven't worked on his bio, yet. I'm thinking he might be part dragon or something. I dunno, yet. xD I'm currently working on another head pic, but a little bit more detailed. Plus, I want to try out some new blending techniques I've been seeing. For now, here's the picture of Alter I was trying to upload.
After like 2 - 4 years I finally picked drawing back up. I didn't really have anything to do this week, so I decided to pick up an old hobby~ I'm SUPER rusty, which was expected xD But, I'm having fun doing it. I'm a little slower than what I used to be, but I'm also be a lot more cautious so it doesn't look like garbage. It's worth it, so far.
Yeah, the week's going okay. Went out with friends this past weekend and met a couple of new people along the way. At home I'm currently working on this picture, watching anime since I'm like 4 years behind, and enjoying the company of my dogs. Parents should be back sometime Saturday, but it's going okay, so far. Still feel somewhat lonely, but fuck it, right? I would be going out everyday, but then I feel bad about leaving my dogs alone. ^^;; So, I think it was good to give myself something to do and look forward to finishing. The only thing that sucks is, I hate being alone when it comes to like houses and stuff, ESPECIALLY at night. I don't really believe in the supernatural, but that doesn't mean the thought of the possibility doesn't linger in my head. Mainly why I like to sleep with white noise. Call me a pussy I don't care. The sad thing is I know it's my imagination that gets the best of me when it comes to these things and I'm fully aware of that. But that's the perks of being a Pisces. Jk. I don't really believe in that zodiac crap.
All in all, I'm doing okay. Could be better, but I'm doing okay. And I'm seriously thinking about drawing more often now that I finally got back on track with it.
Here's my current work piece. I was going to do the highlighting and shading, but I honestly grew tired of working on it for the day. I'll pick it up tomorrow.
Parent's are going on a cruise starting tomorrow (Friday). I get the whole house to myself, which is cool... but when I gave it some more thought, it's going to be pretty lonely. I mean yeah I have my dogs, but I don't really have anyone to accompany me or keep me occupied. And it just makes being single suck even more. ^^;;;; Of course, I'm not going to go out of my way to look for someone, nor am I waiting for someone to come find me, but it just makes me wish the shit that happened... well, didn't. Now, I'm not implying that I want a relationship for the sake of having a relationship. I really loved my ex whole-heartedly. The thing is, I never gave up when we broke up. I just got mad and said stupid shit, but that never changed my feelings at that time. Like it really matters now... I dunno, I'm getting by a lot better than I was these past several months, but I can't help but to miss what was every now and then. I'm only human after all. Bleh... I'm letting my emotions show again. I think it's just the fact that I'm getting older and coming to terms that I can't really find someone anymore. I don't know how to engage in a conversation to create a relationship. Girls (in most cases from what I'm aware) have it easier. If a guy thinks they're cute or whatever, then most likely the guy will engage. I guess I was just so wrapped up with my ex I kind of figured we'd always be together forever. In the end, I forgot how to do these things... never really thought we'd be apart. So, I'm just in a sticky, sucky situation. ^^;; Maybe I'll find someone, eventually... *shrugs*
Parent's are going on a cruise starting tomorrow (Friday). I get the whole house to myself, which is cool... but when I gave it some more thought, it's going to be pretty lonely. I mean yeah I have my dogs, but I don't really have anyone to accompany me or keep me occupied. And it just makes being single suck even more. ^^;;;; Of course, I'm not going to go out of my way to look for someone, nor am I waiting for someone to come find me, but it just makes me wish the shit that happened... well, didn't. Now, I'm not implying that I want a relationship for the sake of having a relationship. I really loved my ex whole-heartedly. The thing is, I never gave up when we broke up. I just got mad and said stupid shit, but that never changed my feelings at that time. Like it really matters now... I dunno, I'm getting by a lot better than I was these past several months, but I can't help but to miss what was every now and then. I'm only human after all. Bleh... I'm letting my emotions show again. I think it's just the fact that I'm getting older and coming to terms that I can't really find someone anymore. I don't know how to engage in a conversation to create a relationship. Girls (in most cases from what I'm aware) have it easier. If a guy thinks they're cute or whatever, then most likely the guy will engage. I guess I was just so wrapped up with my ex I kind of figured we'd always be together forever. In the end, I forgot how to do these things... never really thought we'd be apart. So, I'm just in a sticky, sucky situation. ^^;; Maybe I'll find someone, eventually... *shrugs*
