I've been getting stomach problems ever since the break up. I get that that's a natural thing to happen when a situation like this just occurs, but it's really getting me scared... it's been getting worse these past few days... I might actually have to go see a doctor because this shit is really feeling like it's turning me inside out. I haven't been able to get good sleep, only a few hours at a time before waking up with pain. I get it's a mix between hunger and depression since I'm not really eating well, but still... I already know what's causing it depression wise. Well, technically if you think about it, it's mostly from depression... I just wish this would get better, I wish she'd give me one more chance... or hell at least talk to me... I hate this feeling... but it makes me wonder if she's going through the same thing... I'm highly sure she is which makes me feel like even more shit, but I honestly don't know how she feels about me now. It's been a while since we actually spoke without tension going on... I'm sure she'll get over me, i don't know about myself, I still love her and I want to be with her. I can still hope one day she will change her mind, but that might just not happen... I miss he so much and I'm actually about to start crying just thinking about it again... THAT'S ANOTHER THING! My eyes have been hurting non stop I just want to gouge them out. But seriously... I just hate myself... horribly... hate... myself.