I'm still missing her. Honestly, I'm being so pathetic about this. I'm doing my best to be cheerful and not show my true emotions to people, but the truth is it's taking a toll on me. I can't mask them like I used to. Hell, I was at my friend Jeremiah's house yesterday and I pretty much broke down to him saying I'm a fuck up and everything... he was being supportive and saying who knows what'll happen in the future. We might get back together and stuff. It's sad and pathetic of me that I keep waiting everyday for a text I know won't ever come... He concluded with two options for me: either move on or keep holding on until something happens. Move on? I mean, I know exactly why I'm holding on, but it's like I can't just let go that easily even though I know I'll never get another chance... I am kind of glad I got to talk to him. He said he was able to relate in certain aspects with me. Such a good friend, that he is. I was able to regain my composure and continue chilling with him after a little while and apologized about what happened. But yeah... it's getting rough on me mentally and emotionally. What can I do? I do love her. I just hope I can get better at masking my emotions again.