My stomach has been hurting all day today. All of these memories keep flooding into my head as if it was stuck in some sort of memory compactor. I don't know lol I'm just being stupid. But I'm all seriousness my emotions are getting to me again... I kind of shut myself into seclusion again... I just don't want to talk to other people right now, hell not even my parents really. I took some Advil earlier because I was getting a headache, but I don't think it really helped much. All I did today was just lay on the couch and watch Netflix while just brooding over all of this. It mainly just consisted of wanting to talk to her and wondering if she even misses me at all. I wish this was just a sick game. I wouldn't even be mad if that was the case. I completely understand how she felt at times when she felt alone... the sad thing is I didn't even mean for that to happen... I just wish she would talk to me, you know? It's like I've even been steering away from my own "lifestyle". Not because I want to, but because it's actually just got boring... Hell, I'm barely even playing games anymore, I've been wanting to go to places (I kind of have been... somewhat... it's just by myself) and I just want her right beside me again... I'm being severely calm about all of this, but I just want to go back to being together and doing stuff... together, you know? I miss her so, so, so much... I just wish she felt the same...

Like last time, I apologize for being so down, but I really can't help it... This girl, even if she didn't think it, meant a lot to me. I should've showed it more than I did, but I know better now... I know A LOT better now...