I don't know. I just started feeling more and more depressed throughout the night here. I can't put my finger on it exactly, but I know it's something... I just had this bigger feeling of hating myself (nothing new, I know)... I just want to stay curled up under my covers, my stomach has been hurting again and my heart is having a small pain, too. I don't know what the hell os going on, but I know it's most likely connected to my depression and insecurity right now... I don't want to move at all and just keep staring at the candle flickering from across the room. I don't have the will to do anything else really, and even if I did I wouldn't go through with doing anything else. Maybe I should just go to sleep and hope I feel better tomorrow. Maybe I should stay up and just try to endure this feeling until it's over. I hate this.