Ugh today is being a bad day. I couldn't work at all since I got worse over night, so I had to stay home. I might be going to the hospital later today if it progresses or gets any worse. I feel like death... like seriously, I feel like I'm going to die. The fever is making me so hot, sluggish, super groggy and depressed. Not only that is going on today, but feelings are too. Most likely because two of my friends over Xbox are having relationship issues and I had to talk to both of them last night about it. Well, talking to them and using my past relationship on what to do, what not to do, what could be done and what needs to be done as examples on certain aspects eventually started bringing up memories and such, but I didn't show it through the party. I wanted to help them. I've been helping one of them for at least two weeks now because her girlfriend really is a stupid bitch who has no ambition to do anything, but receive handouts from everyone and makes up the most stupidest excuses to get out of it. Seriously, they need to break up. But he can't because then she gets super depressed and claims she's going to self-harm and he's worried about that. I told him that if she keeps doing that that he needs to contact the authorities. Or just not give a damn and move on. I'm kidding, but seriously... all these talks with these two really bring up a lot of memories.
I miss my ex, almost everyday whether it's a big thing throughout the day or small thing. I wish we could just mend things rather than just letting go... Honestly, I hate how pathetic I've gotten over the last 6 months. I mean, regardless of the depression and the like, I really feel like I've matured over time. Hell, I've taken the reigns of my life back and am looking after myself a lot better, mentally (sort of??) and physically (besides being sick XD). I have a job again, am figuring out places to move, and a bunch of other things.
I doubt she even checks these anymore since it's been a while and she wants nothing to do with me. It's whatever. I like posting here again, even if it's not everyday. It's fun in its own way. Guess I can still dream though, right? Maybe one day this will roll over and we will at least be able to just talk about things. *shrugs*