Work actually sucked today, but the rest of the day has been pretty good.
So, I was standing in line at Gameware, a local game store, today and there was a little girl in front of me with her dad. She was probably about four or five and he was about my age. This little girl kept staring at my arms while I was looking off into space thinking about whether I wanted to grab food on the way home or cook. Then I heard her say to her dad "Daddy, that man has a lot of scars on his arms. Is he a thug?" which I then tried my best not to laugh. The guy apologized to me and I told him it wasn't a big deal. I didn't realize that the sunlight protruding through the windows was illuminating them. I looked down at the girl and this is what I told her. "I got these scars because I hurt someone I cared about a lot in my life."
She said to me, "So, you ARE a thug." I couldn't but cry out in laughter. She was so adorable and it was funny.
"No, I'm not a thug. I hurt them emotionally." I told her. "I said some bad things that they didn't like and I regret ever doing so." She asked me what "regret" meant and I told her in the simplest way I could. "Regret is when you have done something and later you didn't like it. You see it as a bad thing and you wish you never did it in the beginning."
"Oh! I have a regret, too!" she told me. I asked her what that was and she said she regretted taking her medication because it tasted bad. I guess in a way that is a decent example. XD
The dad was done getting his stuff and told her to come along. She said that she will pray for my scars to heal to where they don't exist anymore. I told her thank you and that they're already feeling a lot better, to which she smiled and left.
That little encounter made me feel pretty good. These scars will heal over time, just like the scars carved across my emotional status created by others and myself. But, it made me wonder what it would've been like if things weren't problematic. That's what I wanted to achieve near the end; a better life where there wasn't all that fighting and arguing all the time. That's what I tried to achieve, but then shit hit the fan and... well, yeah. I don't think there's anything I can do now about it. I'm not ruling it out either because the future is an empty canvas filled with infinite possibilities. But enough of that. It's time to jump online and play with some buddies of mine.

Things will get better eventually.