Mom: So, you're just going to URGH URGH *insert derp elephant noise here* URGH URGH?
Me: *stares blankly at her with a smile* ...I'm sorry, I had to process what the hell that was. Wanna run that by me again?
Mom: Nah, I just realized how much of a doofus I sounded.
Me: Oh, no no! Please! I insist! *trying not to laugh*
Mom: *walks away*
Me: *bursts out laughing* DUN LEAVES MEH! XD
Yeah, that just happened maybe 10 minutes ago from typing this. Hey, it was funny to me. So, other than my internal train wreck of an emotional state, life's been doing ok. I will say it definitely sucks not waking up with her next beside me, but what can I do? Right? I think that's kind of the only thing that really, like, GETS ME. Like physically when I wake up, I feel like shit, my mind's fucking racing and a bunch of other stuff, but throughout the rest of the day I feel ok. I mean there's the occasional thought of "I wonder how she's doing and if she even thinks of me anymore" and blah blah that kind of swings by at least once a day. But, yeah. I'm doing better.... PHYSICALLY at least. My mentality is still pretty fucking shot. XD
I've been occupying myself a lot, so that I don't go into an introverted mental state all the time. Mainly, I've been on Twitter a lot. XD I'm fucking retweeting a god damn storm on that thing and I've actually met back up with a couple of friends on there that used to be here.
I've also picked up drawing again. Holy shit, am I fucking rusty. I guess that's what I get for stopping after a few years. I'm thinking about making it a more regular thing and I really want to become friends with some of my favorite artists, but it'll be a while for that to happen if anything. Oh well~
For the next three months, starting Monday, I'm going to be straining the fuck out of my body. Literally, I will be working out 6 days a week, eating a lot healthier and feel a hell of a lot better. My goal is to hit between 190 and 180 by the time I'm done. I'm just tired of being fat. Well, not like FAT, but you can definitely see the chubs when the shirt comes off. Also, there's a lot of clothes I wanna wear again. ;w;
Either today or tomorrow I'm going to go out and get my lip pierced. If not this weekend, then next weekend for sure. I've been wanting it pierced for years now and I've finally built up enough courage to just fucking get it over with. I'm thinking about getting a double ring on the left side. I thought about snake bites, but I was never one for symmetry. XD I might take a picture when it gets done, but most likely not.
Also, I might be getting a tattoo in the near future. One of my co-workers has a sleeve of anime girls (uncolored) and the lines were so damn clean. I've been thinking about getting characters on me, but I've been too worried about the lines not coming out right, or jagged, or etc.
I'm still planning on hitting AX up this summer, and possibly next summer as well. I have a group of friends over Xbox that I've talked to for 6 years now and I thought of the idea of us finally meeting as a group. I mean shit we all now what we look like, we know how we all act, we could practically be neighborhood friends or that type of sort. Everyone sounded as if they were on board which is awesome. But, were still trying to figure out where to meet. It'll most likely be E3, AX, Comicon, or something else. Don't know yet! That's still a years time from now. Lol
That's pretty much what I've been up to so yeah. OH! I forgot to mention that EoTE will most likely be put on hold for a while longer. I really want to start writing it, but I also want to get my life rolling again. So, yeah.
