Do you guys remember the girl Sarah I was talking about? Well today things got much.......WAY MUCH MORE WORSE!!!! You see our friend Cody wants us to be friends again but when we started talking Sarah wanted to know what I was thinking about before I walked away from her the first day...and so I told her it was either I walked away or that I jumped over the table and tried slamming her head into the floor.......(Im a very angry person) and so anyway she goes bring it on bitch! and walks away and so i was like how can i bring it on if your walking away? but anyway Im good at instigated fights and so this was definately no exception!! But seriously she's the one who started this!!!! She asked what was on my mind and I told her.... people always want others to tell the truth....and so i did......its annoying because she's changed so much since she started dating Matt and she doesn't care about anything anymore except for him and it makes me feel like crap........and everyone was like you guys were like best friends...like The best of friends and so I was thinking to myself when is the last time that she actually felt like a real friend to me??? And when I came to my conclusion i figured it out......the last time she was my REAL friend was before she was dating Matt......apparently our friendship is over.....and im okay with it for now.....but something will happen and ill want to be friends again but I know that, that wont happen because she doesn't even care about our friendship anymore........so is it my fault?? Or is She to blame?? I keep swaying back and fourth on who's fault it is..........*sigh* Idk anymore.....I give up........... and then I want to go to the movies with Puppet tonight but my boyfriend wants to come and idk if I want him to come........so should what should I tell him....its just me and Alex havnt hung out in such a long time together and this is like the perfect chance......... and im kind of annoyed with him at the moment.....he doesn't understand why I wont apologize to Sarah and Matt, I just dont think he understands..................*super sigh* I dont know anymore